Starts With Goodbye (18+ MATURE)

Sneak Peek!

SNEAK PEAK:

The thunder roared outside as the winds howled harshly in the middle of the night. My eyes fluttered open as I tightly gripped the sheets up my chest. I really can't sleep during storms, the heavy downpour, thunder and lightning unsettles my nerves. It's past midnight as I checked my phone. Ugh. If this rain won't stop any minute now, I guess I'll have a long night--a long sleepless night. The thunder roared again. "Shit!" I instantly cursed as I ducked down the duvets. My body shook in fear, my fear of recalling memories from the past. The past I wanted to bury ten feet off the ground but can't seem to escape from. I exhaled deeply, letting out the excess anxiety in my system. 'Okay, calm down Toni. Calm down. At the count of four, you'll be fine.' I mentally chanted. One. Two. Three. Fou-- The thunder roared again and my calmness trembled the same time the lightning strike the ground together with the thunder. Painful memories flooded my mind. They're so vivid that it could be mistaken of reliving them once more of some sort. I could feel the anguish, the pain, the tears mixed with the raindrops on my cheeks as my body shook in chills and hatred. 'Daddy, why?' I mumbled and tasted a salty liquid in my mouth. I'm fucking crying again over his betrayal--his betrayal to mom and his ruthlessness to us. The philanderer. My rational sent me back to my senses and I wiped my tears away. I'm done crying over that.

I sat up from the bed and threw the duvets off my body and started for the door. A glass of milk will help. I headed downstairs quietly not wanting to startle and wake up anyone especially Reid who seems to be a light sleeper of some sort. The way to the kitchen was terrifying. I felt like a goddamn thief sneaking quietly at this huge mansion. But what a sexy thief I am as I frowned at my nightdress. It's a flimsy black lace negligee reaching my mid thigh. To make it worse, I am only wearing a thong and no bra. My god, when did I dare coming out of my room with just this piece of clothing? 'Maybe just this once.' My mind answered. 'And why?' The other half of my mind asked. I opened the two-door refrigerator and took a carton of milk. Poured a good amount into the glass I took from the top-left part of the cabinets. I sip a bit and my mind continued the battle of twenty questions. I'm getting crazy, I know.' Maybe because the dark made you brazen. You thought that no one will see you in that sexy nightdress. That's why.' Ugh. I sighed deeply in disappointment. 'What let you down? The fact that you are having a battle to yourself mentally or it has something to do with Reid? You want him to see you in that flimsy nightdress, right?' My mind countered. It hit a nerve. Damn. I shouldn't be thinking of such things. Reid’s already affianced with someone else. 'That's what you heard from his mom and dad's conversation. It wasn't confirmed though.' It is confirmed so I have to erase such thoughts though I haven't seen the girl in person.

I drank the milk down in one gulp and poured another. Milk really helps to calm me down. I put the carton of milk inside the refrigerator and sat at a stool. My main agenda for coming down here is to calm my nerves and clear my mind from negativity and stuff. So I have to refrain thinking such thoughts about Reid. He’s affianced with someone else. It’s not right to fantasize about someone who’s already taken. The least thing I could consider is seducing someone else’s man. I am not like my great for nothing father. My hand clenched tightly at the glass I’m currently holding as I remembered him again. I drank the milk and just half way through it when somebody coughed from behind me which made me gasp and clasped at my chest in pure shock. It’s Reid. He's smirking at me. The bastard. Of all the things he could do is smirk at my sudden choke to death moment. Though it would be of no great use to glare at him due to the pitch darkness, I still darted my eyes at him. The lights are off and the only light illuminating from the kitchen is the light coming from the lamp post outside and the occasional lightning. Then he went beside me. He's wearing a white shirt and just his boxers. Damn. Of all things and time why now? I massaged my temple and breathed deeply. "Can't sleep?" He asked. I just nodded. He smiled and went to the refrigerator for a glass of water. He offered a glass of water. "No thanks, milk's just fine." I said as he drank it all down his eyes never leaving mine. I could feel the weight of his stare on me. It’s as if he’s undressing me. Peeling my provocative night dress. I squirmed under his predatory and lust-filled gaze. My heart hammered in my chest and I panicked. I gulped down the remaining milk on my glass and stand up to fetch the carton again. I was about to open the fridge when a big hand spun me around and pushed me on the ref. My back collided with the ref and I was sandwiched between the ref and Reid's hard body. His hand moved over my cheeks down to my lips, he touched it and lifted it to his own and licked and sucked the white substance stuck on it. The way he did it was sensual and sexy. It made my toes curl and sent tingles down my core.

A/N: As I've said this is just a sneak peek guys! Hahaha. Still preoccupied on how I will get to update my other stories here. Comments and votes please!~

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