I dont want to forget [Jikook]

Just Why?

The pink lilies petal slip out his mouth. It was the 12th petal that he had cough. In which case, its hanahaki disease, coughing petal because of the one sided love that happen. It can be healed if the one you loved, loved you back. And it can be surgery but with side effect that you will forget about the feeling of love toward your one sided.

Jimin didnt want to take the risk of taking surgery. He love the butterfly feeling when he sees his maknae smile, laugh, talking to him, dancing, singing and others. He didnt want to forget the memory being with him. Even though as a friend. He didnt want to lose his heart throb every time  jungkook  stare at him, asking him to eat, telling him to not diet because he already beautiful enough, praise him, hug him suddenly.

But it hurts him. Everytime he saw jungkook and taehyung cuddling. It made him cough more petals. The burning feel in his throat. He hate it. He want to end the feeling. But what can he do? He dont want to forget this feeling and at the other side he know. Jungkook will never love him back. And he know his time limit is just in 99 days more.

He ran toward the restroom once again. It was his third day. He could feel the petal at his mouth. He cant show it to others, actually he dont wanna show it. It will make them worry about him. And he also didnt want jungkook to know it. He dont want the younger to feel it was his fault. He didnt want to make jungkook feel burden. After all its his fault. Why cant he choose who to be fall in love with. Why it must be jungkook.

Why?

Just why?

The petals keep gushing out through his mouth. He feels burning sensation in his mouth.  It just 3 days yet he had enough of that feeling. Really. Tears come out from his eyes. One drop after another. He had enough.