The Last Actor [Nagikae AU]

Emptiness

As Korosensei called roll, I gave out a sigh. I put my head down on my desk waited for my name to be called.

I don't really know why but I had a feeling of... Emptiness. It was hard to explain.

Not that I wasn't used to the feeling. Before, it was something that made me question everything. That feeling used to unbearable. Now it's just there and I don't pay much attention to it.

I sighed once more I shut my eyes and turned my head to the empty desk.

The desk belonged to Kayano. Today it was empty for a reason. And we all know it.

I opened my eyes halfway, and stared at the desk. In the background I could hear the lesson going on, and Korosensei was writing on the chalkboard.

I was in a daze. I was zoned out. In complete bliss, one could say.

I didn't realize how much time I had spent staring at her desk, but it must of been quite a while.

"Nagisa, is something wrong?" Korosensei stopped and asked me.

Yes.

"No. I'm fine." I lifted my head up and smiled brightly. "I just zoned out for second there, haha."

Korosensei didn't seem convinced, but ignored it. "Alright then, please try to pay attention, Nagisa-Chan." He went back to the lesson.

I rested my head on my hand, and pretending to pay attention.

I kept my head looking forward, but my eyes went back to the desk.

I wonder how long the act will stay up, before I crumble.

---

"Nagisa!" Karma bonked my head.

I turned to him and saw Nakamura, Sugino, and Okuda. They had their bags and were ready to go home.

"Hi, guys." I smiled.

"Ready to go, Nagisa?" Sugino asked me.

I nodded and got up.

Out the door we all went.

"Hey, guys, who wants to visit Kaede over winter break?" Okuda asked us.

We all turned to her. It was new for her to talk so directly. I could feel her starting to tremble.

"Sounds nice, Okuda, why don't we?" I smiled at her.

She smiled shyly back at me.

As the rest of the group agreed with Okuda and began to make plans. I took a close look at the small girl.

She had always been so silent, and so sweet when people talked to her. Okuda was a great chemist as well.

What her biggest flaw was: she was too timid.

Everytime she'd accidentally mess up, Okuda would begin to panic. She was a mess when she was left with pressure.

---

It was 8. It was also dark out. Which is where I was.

Outside was cold. So cold you could see my breathe. But that's not the point.

The point is, that I'm honestly so glad I wore pants instead of a skirt. That has got be one of the greatest things I had ever done.

"There's a shortcut, if I remember, to my house... If I go through the alley." I went in.

It was quiet in there. Halfway, I saw I mama cat cleaning her kitten. I stopped to look.

"They're both gonna die." I said.

Taking a few looks to my side to make sure no one was watching, I crouched down and stared closer at the cats.

"The Mama's dying..."

I picked up the small kitten.

"I promise I'll take care of her." I smiled sweetly at the mama.

Tucking the small thing into my red knitted scarf, I hadn't noticed a guy sneak up behind me.

"How sweet." He smiled creepily.

The man gripped my coat by the collar and held me up.

What the hell? I don't recall hearing that voice!

"What the hell?!" I said struggling breathe.

He didn't respond but gripped on tighter.

I struggled.

Shit! What do I do!? This guy's strong!

Then I remembered. I had a kitchen knife with me.

I have to reach for my pocket.

When I got ahold of it. I slit his neck before he could realize what was happening.

As he fell to the floor I made sure the cat was okay. Then there was a whimper.

I turned my head to the source of it. My eyes couldn't be wider.

"Na-nagisa?" The twin braided girl asked horrified.

I didn't even have to do anything. She had fainted right there.