We'll Find A Way

*12*

Come Wake me Up

The tears flow freely from the corners of my eyes and down my cheeks, soaking my face and my knees which are pulled to my chest. "This can't be happening." I choke between my sobs. Someone must've heard or seen my phone get thrown down the hall as Ethan soon comes out of the live stream room.

"(Y/N)... what happened out here? We just saw your phone be launched down the hallway." His voice is full of concern but he just seems confused until he turns to see me crying on the floor. "What happened?!" He drops to the floor at my side and tries to wipe the tears from my face but only make the slightest difference. "Sh. It's okay. Just breath and tell me what's wrong." Having failed at wiping away the tears, he results to pulling me in tightly for a hug.

"H-he called..." my voice cracks slightly and I try to slow the rushing flow of salty tears. "The doctor..." I force myself to look up and into Ethan's hazel eyes.

"What did he say? (Y/N) you can tell me." He wipes my face again with his thumbs and meets my (e/c) eyes with his.

"I... I have lung cancer..." saying it out loud has made me realize that it's true and I'm not just dreaming and sobs rack my body. Ethan's embrace tightens even more and he sits in silence allowing me to cry into his chest.

"Everything okay?" Mark's deep voice interrupts my quiet sobbing but when he realizes what's happening he turns and motions for everyone else to come out. Ethan looks up at Mark sadly. Amy, Kathryn, Mark, and Tyler sit quietly on the floor around me and Ethan, making sure to give us space.

"Ethan." I mutter into the blue-haired boy's chest. "Please wake me up. Tell me it's just a dream." He rocks me gently in his arms unable to say anything because telling me what I want to hear will only be a lie. "It's already taken away so many that I love." My voice fades and I look up at him, my vision blurred by the tears.

We sit in silence for almost an hour afterwards, no one but Ethan and I knowing what is happening. It's Ethan that finally breaks the silence. "You should call him back... the sooner we start treatment the sooner you'll get better."

"Treatment?" Mark looks over at us, confused and almost upset. "What is going on here guys?" Ethan looks to me knowing that he still doesn't know the full story. "(Y/N)..."

"It's my lungs... they got the results back." I take a deep breath, trying to prepare myself for what's to come. "I have stage four lung cancer..." And here it is again. The crying. But I'm holding it in this time. I won't let myself break down. Now the hugging, that makes it hard. After about a whole minute of hugging each of my newfound friends, I retrieve my phone and they all go back into the livestream room where they plop down on beanbags. I quickly join them knowing that I'll just have to tell them at some point anyways. My fingers tap the phone screen repeatedly until I find the number that the doctor called with. This is it. This is when I find out what to do.

"Hello this is (random hospital name) how may I help you?" A woman's voice answers the call and I freeze up slightly. Luckily Ethan takes the phone from my hands, puts it on speaker, and answers for me. All I can do is mouth thank you when he asks for Dr. Jakobs. The nurse says to wait a moment and we hear rustling on the other end of the phone.

"This is Dr. Jakobs, what can I do for you?" I get shivers down my spine when I hear his voice because all I can think about is what he told me last time we talked. Mark seems to notice and moves his beanbag next to mine before giving me a gentle hug. Ethan then glances at me and hands the phone back since I'm the only one permitted to get any of my information.

"H-hi. This is (Y/N) (L/N). I'm calling back about my test results..." my voice fades off.

I talk to the doctor for a very short amount of time since he prefers to talk in person and I schedule an appointment with him next week hoping that what Ethan said about the earlier the better is true. Once I hang up I'm emotionally drained. My entire world has come crashing down around me in just a matter of days. The only good part to any of this is that I'm currently staying with Ethan Nestor, otherwise known as CrankGameplays, and I'm friends with Markiplier, Amy, Kathryn, and Tyler whose videos I've been watching for many years. Ethan scoots closer to me and hugs me tightly.

"We'll all be there for you through it all." His hand rubs up and down my arm and everyone around us nods in agreement. This is hard as fuck but they're all here for me and I never expected to have anything like that happen to me.

"Thanks guys..." I manage a small smile as I make eye contact with all of my friends.

"Of course." Mark smiles back at me, his warm brown eyes seeming to pierce my soul. "I have an idea. How about we all make a video together? We can meet up here tomorrow and spend the whole day hanging out and making videos."

"That sounds great! You in (Y/N)?" Amy turns her gaze from Mark over to me.

"Of course!"

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A/N: sorry about this chapter guys. Ii feel like it's kinda weird. Now I wanna ask you guys something. Well, three things.
1) should I continue with the cancer route or should I do my amazing dream thing and go back a bit to make it fluffier?

2) what should their first video together be?

3) Anyone notice anything about the past like two or three chapter titles?

So yeah. There are my questions, I might try to do like questions of the day to get more people commenting and influencing where the story goes. Sadly, my chest pains have only gotten worse and I couldn't fall asleep until five in the morning because of them so I don't know how often I'll be updating. I hope you guys understand and I am going to try for a new chapter on the original Alone and Broken so keep an eye out for that. If you have any suggestions or just want to chat, let me know. I hope you guys enjoyed, if you did, punch that vote button right in the face LIKE A BOSS and I will see you in the next chapter stay cranky! Bu-bye!!!