To love and to be afraid

13

After a few miles, I think of walking and running streets and buildings were becoming familiar. I think I'm getting closer. I finally made my way to his apartment and knocked on the door.

"Please answer the door" I whispered looking around frantically. I heard the door open, I sighed in relief. I ran up to him giving him a hug surprised he didn't hug back.

"Kevin?" I looked up at him .he showed no emotion at all.

"Why are you here?" He said confused, is he not happy to see me?

"I'm Sorry did I do something wrong?" Offended I took a step back. I was trying to figure out what was wrong looked down at me clenching his jaw.

"Just forget about everything. Forget that we ever met. Everything." He was about to close the door but I quickly barged in.

"NO. Kevin what's wrong? What did I do?" On the verge of tears yet I tried my best to hide it.

"When were you going to tell me that your boss's father basically controls your whole career" he rubbed his head in frustration.

"Where are you getting th-"

"It doesn't matter,what matters is that you used me. All this time I felt bad because of how he was treating you when in reality there's nothing I can do but get some more jail time or possibly lose my life!" He walked back and forth rubbing his forehead trying to calm himself down. I felt helpless, hearing these words come out of Kevin's mouth made my mind feel numb. I couldn't take anymore of what he had to say.

"Look Stacey just leave me alone I don't want to be involved in all your drama with your boss. You probably have a thing for him anyway so just stop running and crying to me because I'm tired of it" he gave me a cold stare. If that's what he wants then fine. I sighed frustrated that all this running in the rain just to look for his house was all for nothing. I turned my head not even bothering to say goodbye to leave. Once I was a few blocks away I let the rain cover my tears as I walked all the way home. Kevin was the last person I would of thought to judge me. What made him act like this? Eventually I made it home praying to God thanking him that I made it home safe and that tomorrow would be a better day. Feeling mentally sick and dirty I took quick shower, wanting nothing more but my bed. I was too exhausted from crying all the way home so I instantly went to sleep.

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Next morning...

I was crying for the ninth time today in my office. And once again Devin was acting like nothing ever happened. I KNOW he was trying to get make me to stay longer by all the work he gave me so I was trying my hardest to get it all done so I could leave early, I even skipped my lunch break so I can leave early. I heard the Door knock making my my heart sink.

"Come in" I quickly whipped my face getting rid of the dried up tears stains that were sticking on my face. It was Devin's father, I was really surprised.

"Nice to see you Mr.Gordon" I smiled standing up to shake his hand. Then I sat back down.

"Nice to see you too Stacey"

"I came here because Devin told me y'all had an altercation" he frowned. I swallowed a breath of air getting ready to explain.

"I will not tolerate you disrespecting my son Stacey" I looked at him in shock.

"Excuse me?!"

"Calm down Stacey there's no need to raise your voice " he replied showing no emotion. I can't believe he was acting this way. The man that provided me everything that I ever needed.