What We Do For Love (Flash x Reader)

Chapter 5

A few days later Y/N's doppelganger was still nowhere to be found. They scoured the city, every street, every alley, the team had searched every way that they knew how; she simply didn't want to be found.

Barry woke up in the middle of the night once again to yet another terrible dream, he hadn't had one in a while, until now. Y/N woke up almost immediately after Barry, she noticed his face was in his hands as he sat on the bed.

Barry felt Y/N's warm arms wrap around him, "I'm sorry I keep waking you up."

Y/N shook her head, "It's okay Barry, you don't have to be sorry," Y/N said laying a tender kiss on his cheek.

"But that's just it, I am sorry. It's all my fault, everything," he said sounding disappointed in himself.

"Barry," Y/N said pulling his hands away from his face, his green eyes meeting hers. "None of this is your fault, you can't blame yourself like this Barry. It's not your fault Barr," Y/N said in hopes of convincing him that it wasn't.

"But it is," he protested. "When I was in the speed force I saw everything that I've ever done wrong, and it all led to this," he said shaking his head. "This is my fault, and I only wish that there was a way for me to take everything back," he said choking back the tears.

"Barry, I did the same thing when I went through this. And I can tell you right now that blaming yourself is the worst thing you can do for yourself right now okay?" Y/N said shaking him back into reality. "You just have to accept that there's nothing that you can do to change that. What happened is in the past, now you have to focus on the future, and see what you can do so that doesn't happen again. Don't dwell on the past Barry, you have to live in the moment."

"But that's just it Y/N, I am so focused on the past that I'm afraid of the future...I'm the hero, I'm supposed to be fearless, but right now I've never felt so afraid."

"You're not a god, Barry," Y/N protested. "Change happens, tragedy happens, people make choices and those choices affect everyone else. Heros aren't fearless, Barry, heroes are brave. And bravery is born out of fear, and fear is loving something so much...that its loss would destroy you...you are not a god Barry, and this is not your fault."

Barry let out a little laugh, "How do you always know just what to say to me to make me feel better?" he asked smiling at Y/N.

"It's a secret superpower," Y/N chuckled. Barry laughed before wrapping his arms around her and pulling her back down into the bed with him. Y/N snuggled into Barry's warm body as his arms wrapped perfectly around her waist, his hands tracing gentle patterns on her hip. He laid one final kiss to her temple before falling asleep.

Y/N woke the next morning, she rolled over only to realize that Barry wasn't there. She got up a little confused as to where he was. Y/N showered and changed quickly before heading downstairs, she found Barry on the couch, he looked like he was in pain.

"Barry?" Y/N asked walking over to him. She gasped when she saw him, his suit jacket was off, and revealing a large bruise on his ribs. 

"Morning," he replied in a weak voice. Barry shifted slightly and winced as he did so. Y/N sat by him and stilled his movements.

"Easy does it," she said moving his hands away from his side. Y/N examined the bruise before letting out a sigh. "What did this? Better yet, why did you go out there without me?" she asked sounding frustrated.

"You were asleep, you looked peaceful, and I thought I could handle it, I'm fine," he said putting his hand on hers. "It was just a bank robbery, only these guys had weapons, strong ones. They looked alien almost," Barry added.

"Right now, I'm just glad you're okay," Y/N said kissing his cheek. "I'll get on the alien weapons, maybe Dominator tech. As for you, get some rest. I'll be back in an hour to check on you," Y/N said pecking Barry on the lips quickly before speeding out and off to S.T.A.R. Labs.

She entered the Cortex to find Cisco busy at work on his computers, Caitlin was in her medical lab, and Julian was most likely at the station.

"Hey, Cisco?" Y/N asked interrupting his work as she leaned against his desk.

He looked up from his work, "Yeah? You need something?" he asked.

"Did Barry tell you about the robbery earlier?" Y/N asked.

Cisco furrowed his brows in confusion, "What robbery?" he asked.

"Of course he didn't tell you," Y/N sighed. "Look, there was a robbery this morning, the robbers had weapons, advanced ones to be precise. Barry described them as alien; I'm thinking it might be something left from the Dominator Invasion last year, or maybe the one from a few years ago," Y/N said before getting back to the point, "Either way, we need to track these weapons and handle them," Y/N finished.

"Great, now we have bank robbers with alien weapons, let's just hope they aren't meta-humans too," Cisco said sarcastically as he headed over to his computers to begin his search.