She just cant!

He had his reasons

He let her go. He didn't want to but still he just let her go. He still thinks about her. Maybe just once in a day, maybe just for few seconds but yeah he does think. He misses her a lot but just don't say it. He also don't know why. He doesn't let people talk about her in front of him because he is scared that he might spill everything, every secret out, which he has been hiding from months. He tries to avoid her a lot but she still by chance comes in front of him. They daily see each other. They see each other's story and then just wants to reply but doesn't. He has some reasons of ending things, he always had reasons.

He is in pain, he is not happy, he is sad but he doesn't let it appear on his face. He fakes his laughs and dumb people around him ignores it. Maybe they don't want to object him at all. You know, everyone has their reasons. He was happy before. He was sad too but happy also. Now he is just sad. He has suffered through a lot and he is still suffering through a lot. He knows how much pain she is in but still he doesn't speak a word. He knows that she will never forget him and he cant forget her but don't know why he pretends like he doesn't even know her like she never existed. Only she doesn't suffer the pain. He also does. When the eyes meet in the hallway he wants to go and talk to her or just hug her so tightly but he doesn't. He has his "reasons". He also want to text her but He thinks making her suffer will someday result good but he doesn't understand without him she is just a blank page I guess not even a page.. If he is not there she doesn't even exist. Maybe he is helping her, maybe he is trying to make her hate him, maybe because he thinks he will just destroy her.

It will be a maybe. FOREVER I guess.. He also wants to talk to her in the cafeteria, he also wants to hold her hands in the ground, he also wants to leave her to the bus but he cant. He thinks he is not perfect for her and maybe he is right he is not perfect for her but this thing is up to her not him. He doesn't get to decide everything.. Right? He maybe thinks she is a despo but deep down inside he knows she just care about him a lot and he doesn't have a habit of people caring about him this much so he just object it..

Yeah! He also cries, he also hides, he also suffers, but its all because of him only.. She suffer because of his decisions.. There is a difference.. He is a very kind person, he is very sweet and innocent but right now he is not on the right path.

Everyone wants to be with him. Everyone wants to give him advice but everyone is scared. They shouldn't be but they are scared of him because they never know when he will end everything with them. No one has the guts to leave him. He is all alone well he thinks that he is all alone the truth is he isn't!! he wants himself to be alone. He doesn't want to talk about himself. So people also avoid talking about him but 1-2 days, weeks, months. His friends care they just cant leave him. He helps everyone and so people wants to help him. He is not injured or depressed that he want help. He just needs some good friends and good advice.

We cant really do something when the person doesn't want it.

SOON HE WILL GET OVER EVERYTHING! He knows everything. He will be okay. And if a person who can help him or support him is HER. The one who is suffering.. The one who cant let go of him.

All he have to do is forget the past and make his future good by making things good with everyone.

He will do it! Someday soon he will. HE WILL SOON AND THEN THINGS WILL BE PERFECT..