Strange Poetry

Pinky Promises

If I could start again I swear I would re-write every word of my life story and in that story I would be a bear.
Because the difference between promises and memories, promises can be broken and memories can break us.

It started the summer after 6th grade with a wolf and a bear.
When my mother cried when Daddy was found with the pretty blonde woman down the street who wore too much lips stick and smoked too many cigarettes.

When I was 11 I found my big sister with blood coming down her wrists cause the boy next door didn't love her anymore.

When I was fifteen my best friend called me a four in the morning crying because her boyfriend got drunk and kissed all the girls with dead eyes and lips that tasted like alcohol.

But I never knew heartbreak until I fell asleep in your arms and woke up alone.

A year later someone asked me, do you think some promises are worth keeping and all I could think of is the promise I made four years ago that I would always love you.

But then things hurt and my shell broke over three years together.
So many poems written
So Tell me : every poem I've ever written is about us, are all of them about love? I can no longer find love in them. All I have left is the gifts you gave me and the memories you left.

This person I loved gave me a box of darkness but after a year I now know this was gift.

I would live my life as a bear, free and tough, re-write a story that I already lived past having broken one promise because you broke many but one thing I do promise you this I will be happy.