Jahseh and I became really good friends. We would meet everyday at the park and have a real conversation. "I thought about what you said earlier, I wanna record one of my songs, you know just for the fun of it" I told Jahseh. "I can bring my laptop and mic to your house" he answered. "Perfect, meet me at my locker after school" I told him.
Jahseh and I walked home, luckily no one was at my house. He showed me how the stuff works and it was pretty fun. We also ended up watching tv and chilling. We lost track of time and we heard the door open. I thought it was my mom but it wasn't. "Dee!" I heard my brother yell. I know my brother and Jahseh aren't on good terms at the moment. But hopefully he just forgot or something. He walked in my room and his eyes landed straight on Jahseh. "Dee that's your brother?!" He asked me. "What the fuck are you doing in my house bro?" He asked him. "Yo get out he's my friend!" I told me brother. "You know what Dee, imma leave" Jahseh told me, and he left. "What the fuck?" My brother asked me. "I can ask you the same thing, he's my only friend yet you kicked him out of the house" I answered. "Does ma know you invited a criminal inside the house?" He asked me. "The only criminal in this house is you!" I yell at him. "I swear on my mama Dee, If I see y'all again imma make both of y'all lives a living hell, period!" He yells back and slams the door.
Great. Jahseh, my only friend is probably mad at me, my brother is mad at me, and he's probably going to tell mom and she's going to be mad at me. I just laid in bed writing in my notebook. I suddenly got a text, from Jahseh.
Meet me at our spot, at 12 sharp- Jahseh
I replied with a okay and waited for my mom to fall asleep.
I sneaked out of my house, and walked to the park. I spotted Jahseh siting on the rock. "Jahseh... I'm sorry about my brother he's such an asshole and-"
"It's fine" he replied.
"What's up then" I asked
"We can't be seen together anymore, I feel like we should stop seeing eachother completely"
"What? That's ridiculous, you're my only friend Jahseh"
"Yeah, but we can't risk anything, things could do really bad"
"Jahseh..."
"Bye Dee"
He walked away and just left me there, hurt. We told eachother everything, how can he just walk out of my life right now? It was too soon.
I couldn't sleep that night. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Why? Do I love him? I don't wanna admit that, not yet. But I won't deny that I have feelings for him.
