I have too much on my mind right now. Technically, I'm still dating Marcus. And I'm starting to like Jahseh even more everyday, and I still don't know what's going on with his my brother Khalil. And Marcus haven't spoken to me since the little washroom incident with Jahseh.
I called Asia because she understands me the most out of all the girls.
"Hey girl" I say
"Wassup b" she replies
I explained everything that happened on the phone.
"Girl, stay with Marcus! Y'all love eachother. And what the fuck? Really Jahseh? The guy that been to jail and looks like he bout to kill everyone in this bitch" she says
"Okay chill, I actually like him" I said
"Girl he's trash you can't be seen with him" she said.
I hung up and thought about it. She didn't understand after all I mean she doesn't know why he ended up in jail, why he so depressed, why he dresses like that, because I do the same and she doesn't understand it either. No one does, except for Jahseh.
I texted Marcus, telling him we had to talk about what happened. He agreed to meet me at the corner store in my neighbourhood at 7.
I walked to the corner store and spotted Marcus already waiting for me.
"Look Jahseh and I were just trying to solve a problem... I know the washroom made it look like we were doing something else, but me and Jahseh had a few problems we had to fix, and I didn't know he was going to beat you like that, you know Jahseh has really bad anger issues" I said. He just starred at me and sighed. "From now on, you're not allowed to talk to any boys, not allowed to wear stupid shit like that, and you're not allowed going out without asking me and you're not allowed to talk to Jahseh or else both of y'all gon be dead" he said and just walked away before I could say anything. I didn't want this. I just realized how much of an asshole he is.
Right now I really don't know what to do anymore. My 'friends' don't understand me, if I'm with Jahseh he'll end up getting hurt, Marcus is going crazy and I just feel completely alone. I don't know what to do anymore so I decided to right some music.
I didn't care anymore. I couldn't stop thinking about him. I had to meet him. I texted Jahseh to meet me at our spot at 12am. I just need to see him. I just wanna hear his voice.
