the scars of our past (HP Marauders Wolfstar Fanfic)

Chapter 2: can't think of a name

Sirius' pov 

'I can't believe it. I literally can't believe it. We had just gotten out time tables from the perfects and I'm sharing a dorm with none other than loony Lupin. I mean we don't have to be friends with him but come on 7 years.' 

"You know what I don't get, the fact that they don't even give us maps. Like how do they expect a bunch of 11-year-olds to navigate their way to classes in a seemingly never ending castle, AND all the corridors look exactly the same." Peter starts to complain, Sirius and James give each other a look that assures the other that they were thinking the exact same thing, 'he is going to get so lost.'

Once they had gotten to the common room one of the prefects led the girls up to their dorms and one starts to lead the boys to theirs. Peter was thinking about how he found it extremely unfair how the girls can go into the boy's rooms but they wouldn't even make it up the first step. Sirius turned his head to see a tired looking Remus down at the bottom of the steps, slowly following the rest of them. Then Sirius started to unintentionally stare at him. 'I mean there aren't that many boys in Gryffindor this year but he just looks so distant... and ill. Like he looks like he might just drop over and faint any moment. But to his shock, he slowly started to climb the stairs. '

He thinks no one's watching but I can see him attempting to mount the stairs. He is limping so bad I can't believe I didn't notice it while he walked. but then again, he knew people could see him then.' Sirius' mind only returns to the world when he notices fingers snapping in front of his face. 

"Dude, earth to Sirius. We're in here." James said as he walks into the dorm in which the bags have already been conveniently placed in. James and Sirius rushed to the bunk bed on the wall next to the door and the bathroom while Peter slowly walked to the bed opposite. Then Remus walks in with his hand on his side and stumbles over the trunks and falls flat on his face. The boys all laugh their heads off while he picks himself up again and makes his way towards the only bed without a bunk next to the window. And that's how they stay for the rest of the day, just sitting on the beds talking and unpacking, extremely excited for days to come when we start our classes. "There is still have a few days until school actually starts so we can just hang around and stuff," James said. But Sirius wasn't listening, he was looking at the bed near the window but Remus wasn't there. 

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mainly Remus:

Sirius, James and Peter didn't see much of Remus for the days leading up to classes, but they found other ways to amuse them selves. On the space of 4 days, they had managed to turn the Ravenclaws and Slytherins bread and butter bright pink set off 3 dung-bombs in the Slytherin common room, and accidentally set fire to one of Remus' books. Of course, Remus hadn't noticed. Yet. 

The boys didn't bother to ask the where about of their other roommate but Remus had other things on his mind than whether his classmates had missed him, it had been a very bad full moon, one that had left him with one of the most horrible scars across his stomach he'd ever had. It was so bad that Madam Profrey said that he had almost torn out his stomach, and if he had been any closer to his heart, he'd be dead or as good as. He'd gotten out from the hospital wing the day before classes were due to start so he had had no chance to speak to his professors before hand as he had planned. 

The start of the year had progressed smoothly and much to his delight his 'friends' hadn't noticed the days following the full moon when he was absent from both his dorm and classes. But then again there had only been 2 moons, and he had noticed that they were only getting worse and worse every time. Remus didn't really talk to people or make friends but he did like to notice what was happening in the lives of his other students.

 James made no secret of his crush on lily and constantly nagged her to go on a date with her. By this time Sirius had just had his 12 birthday and Remus (not that he would ever admit it) had given him a big bar of chocolate anonymously. Remus always had a big stash of chocolate in case of emergencies. He was obsessed with the stuff. Even though he had only started eating it because he read that it would kill dogs. 'Maybe it's the same with werewolves.' 

Remus had been walking down the hallway on his way to transfiguration when a fifth year has tripped him up. It being so close to the full moon (and insanely hot) he was remarkably tired and all his books and notes fell to the floor. As he tried to stand up the boy stepped in his cloak making it fall off leaving his arms exposed as he had pushed up the sleeves. The boy found this absolutely hilarious and started calling him all sorts of names. And soon enough his friends joined in. "mudblood... Pretty boy... Freak... No wonder u got scars, who would tolerate u for 11 years... He probably does it to himself... cutter..." Remus was trying to roll his sleeves down and get his cloak but they were having nothing of the sort. Finally after what seemed like years one of the girls spoke. "Come on guys, he's not worth it. Even he knows that." Her voice had not a hint of sympathy and sounded only of boredom. Then one on the boys ended it and punched him square in the face so hard it completely knocked him out.

"Remus, Remus. Reeemus. For gods sake wake up." Remus opened his eyes to see none other than Lily Evans kneeling next to him. "Oh my god you're finally awake. I was walking down to transfiguration when I saw those fifth years walking off laughing and then a saw u lying there unconscious and I didn't know what to do."

 Only just realising what had happened Remus quickly looked down and started pulling down his sleeves in hope that Lily hadn't noticed. "Remus... It's okay, I've seen them. You don't need to be afraid. Are you okay?" Remus slowly nodded and took the cloak that Lily was holding out to him. "Come on." lily said in an attempt to put a more cheery spin on things. "We gotta get to class, we'll only be like 10 minutes late. I'm sure we'll be forgiven just this once." She gave Remus a little wink before helping him up, and they then made their way to class. 

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After what happened that day Remus spent almost all his time in the library and barely ever went outside. He tried his hardest to either be the first one to sleep, or the last one. But always the first one up. One day after Remus had been kicked out of the hospital wing on a Saturday Remus found himself with no enough strength to make it to the library and instead found himself walking up to the common room. But much to his dismay he found that James and Sirius were already indulged in a game of exploding snap when he got up to the dorm. "Hi Lupin," Sirius said. Remus became flustered, unable to think of what to say. He wasn't good at talking to people and had no idea what to say to a simple hello. 

"Oh-um-h-h-hi S-s-si-siriu-s." Then Remus walked straight into the bedpost hitting his foot on the corner. "Oh shit shit, fucking shit, bloody fucking hell aargh that bloody mother fucking hurt." Remus looked back and Sirius and James that had a completely blank expression on their faces. Then from out of nowhere, Sirius started to slowly clap. "Wow, for the guy that can't string together more than 2 words that was some excellent profanity," James concluded. "Mate. I think you can safely say that was more than 2 words." Sirius pointed out. Then they both started to laugh. Like, laugh their heads off. Remus started to worry that they were laughing at him for a second, but then realised that for the first time in his life, someone was laughing with him. He gave a little chuckle and then, lay down on this bed and before he knew it, the small werewolf was fast asleep. 

Sorry, this was a bit of a shorter chapter but i hope it was still good. Please please comment if you have any ideas or want me to write about anything. If anyone gives me ideas I promise I will write them in. I cross both my hearts. Also, while writing the last bit I couldn't get the "werewolf not swearwolfs thing out of my head.