Losing Control

❣️ Alone but not lonely ❣️

Aisling.
With this being my first time officially being single I didn't know what to do, I thought about going the basic bitch route and going to a club. But the only clubs within an hour radius of my house are janky as shit , and I really don't feel like dealing with fake hood niggas flexing their fake ass chains and their mommas social security checks. Then you got the musty hoes ready to bust it open for any nigga that gives them so much as a side hug. So I crossed that out went on to other things.

     I couldn't think of anything creative to do with my time so I went my typical route and busied myself watching impossible makeup tutorials, I knew for fact I'd never be able to accomplish any of these looks but Jackie Aina is entertaining so I continued watching. About an hour in my laptop began to die and I was to lazy to get up and my charger so I just let it die and called Cyra.

     Three rings later Cyra picked up "Heyyyy how's my favorite hoe?" Cyra said as always "Bored as shit come over I miss you." "As much as I'd love to bother my favorite girl I can't I'm at my moms with Marco and Peyton" she said referring to her niece and nephew. "Boooo you whore I hate you" I said "I love you too Ling Ling" as she said this I could've sworn I heard a male voice in the back "hmm Marco and Peyton are awfully quiet" I said prying seeing as their was a possibility that it was one of her brothers in the background. "Well.. uhh they're napping" she said. And I knew she was lying because that's the only time Cyra would ever stutter "oh and where's your mom" I said still trying to dig for information "cooking" she said letting the lie quickly spew off her tongue "anyway I gotta go" she said hanging up without giving me the chance to reply

I decided to let the whole situation go and get on Snapchat and lip sync like the typical girl. I stopped midway between Jaquees' Come thru deciding that I'd done enough snap flooding for now and started clicking through people's snaps. I was making my way through my list but I stopped when I got to my brothers snap he was rolling a blunt which was nothing new but he was in a Jeep. And he doesn't drive a fucking Jeep so I did some investigating and checked his and Cyra's location through Snapchat and they were in the exact same location. I didn't even want to imagine what they were doing. But I did screenshot the picture and post it on my snap captioning it "My best friend is cheating on my with my own brother" knowing that they'd both see it later.

This was around the time I realized I was alone, but it wasn't a bad feeling it was actually comfortable except for the fact that I was incredibly horny. That was the good thing about Josh he could put it down like no other. I got a bit angry thinking about how Tiffany was getting bomb dick and I was sitting here. But I refused to let that thought linger I dug into my night table and pulled out my vibrator turning it on deciding not to beat around the bush. My head was soon filled with images of Lance Gross (the man is finer than baby hair) doing foreign things to my body. And soon the euphoric feeling began to travel through my body.

     That was cut short all too quick due to my lying cheating ass bestfriend calling me. "The fuck do you want" I asked her half kidding half serious "I'm sorryyyyy Ling" "nah nah nah go finish babysitting" I said " I had no choice but to lie I didn't think you wanted to heard about the dick appointment I had with your brother, it was amazing by the way." she said thoroughly grossing me out "ew what the fuck" "see that's why I lied but seriously ling I don't think imma be walking straight any time soon your brother seriously put it down" "ok Cyra stop that's fucking disgusting and you're not helping my situation I haven't gotten any in almost two months I'm practically dying" "girlllll we gone have to fix that  real soon" Cyra said while laughing at me "I almost called Tony ass to come fix the problem" I said referring to Tony I've known him forever and we had a lil thing going before I made it official with Josh "Girl call your little dippity I'm bout to go my man back with my food" "Ew bye" I said hanging up

    For a minute I contemplated calling Tony due to my current state. But I didn't figuring that I was thinking with my clit and not with my head. I ate showered and went to bed content realizing I was alone but not lonely.

Short chapter I know I know but it's pretty much just a filler I tried to make it as interesting as possible.  Have a great day guys.
     ~Day Day 💋