Losing Control

❣️Jazmine Sullivan-ed❣️

     Aisling.
I had to be about 10 the first time I heard Bust your Windows, at that age I never understood why someone would go to those extremes after a breakup. But now at 22 I understand. It's been about two weeks since the incident with Josh. I didn't just wake up the next day and decide on it, I already knew that it wouldn't patch up my heart. But I wanted revenge, I refused to be the only one hurting. After the breakup Cyra made a fake Instagram page to keep tabs on Josh and lately he's been out with a group of bitches. So fuck it, I know how Josh feels about his car so I can't wait to see the look on his face when he sees his car when I'm done. His car was the only thing he actually invested money in. Why get mad when you can get even? I thought to myself , at that moment the idea came to me.

     I contemplated getting a Snickers and putting it in his gas tank but I decided not to go that far. If I did that Snickers would permanently be ruined for me and we can't have that. Cyra always told me if someone cheated on me she'd do it but I begged her not to do it and as far as I know she listened.

     After work on Thursday I went home and changed into all black attire. I decided it would be best to make myself "incognegro", for what I was about to attempt. I even took it as far as putting my hair into a ponytail, and if you know me you know I hate ponytails. My hair is too thick and my edges never lay, but that's a story for another day. Anyway back to what I was saying I made myself incognergro and got everything I needed to do what I wanted to do.

     Just as I was about to leave Cyra burst through my apartment door. "You didn't think I'd let you go all Jasmine Sullivan all by yourself?" Cyra said as she walked through the door making light of the whole situation. "How'd you know?" I asked looking at her "Oh Ling-Ling I thought we already established I know all." she said matter of factly "Cyra I'm serious" "Okay if you must know I was at your brothers house when you laid your plan out." "So you were eavesdropping" I asked "No you were on speaker." Cyra said shrugging "wait, wait, wait why were you at my brothers house?" "that's not important right now; lets go Jazmine Sullivan this nigga." she said ushering me towards my apartment door
We made it outside and decided on taking Cyra's Jeep. I looked for any excuse because I loved her car. I couldn't justify buying one since it was only me. Cyra had reason due to her many siblings and nieces and nephews. The whole car ride to Josh's brothers I had Bust your Windows on repeat ; I needed something to keep my courage, the shot of tequila I took before Cyra barged in had seemingly wore off and the music was the only thing keeping me going

Within the next 20 minutes we were rounding the corner to Dre's house. Cyra parked her car a few cars back from Josh's. Before we got out Cyra turned to me and said "You sure you're down for this, because once we start there's no going back" "I know, I'm ready let's do this" I said twisting my body to grab the baseball bat from Cyra's back seat. We walked the half a block to Josh's car, his car was vintage you could say. It was a 1996 Ford Mustang, it was a gift from his father. The car was a dark blue but seemed to sparkle if the sun hit it just right, the entire was a smokey grey. I actually liked his car. I loved riding in it, it rode so smoothly ; "oh well paybacks a bitch" I mumbled to myself.

"Would you like to do the honors?" Cyra asked me I didn't bother replying instead I picked up my bat and let it crash into his tail light, feeling like some of the weight was lifted off my shoulders now I see why Jazmine Sullivan made such a big deal. Before I knew it I was knocking off his mirrors while Cyra cracked his windshield. After a while I got tired so I took a break and looked at his car. For a minute I felt a tinge of regret or maybe it was guilt. But that all went away when I saw Josh's sidechick leave out the front door. For a brief second I wondered if she upgraded to main check due to my absence, but I didn't let that thought haunt my head for too long. I took Cyra's keys and engraved "BITCH" in large letters on the passenger side door of his car and chuckled admiring my work. The bottle blonde must've noticed me at that moment because she starting calling for Josh. He ran out of Dre's house ; he turned his head to the left and spotted Cyra and I.

"What the fuck Ling" he exclaimed running to his car to get a closer look. "What you don't like it, I think it looks amazing gives the car character" I said causing Cyra to chuckle "This is bullshit Ashling, I'm calling the police, you're paying for my car" "oh are you now, call them I'd love to feel them in on how Dre's still selling even though he's on probation, and I bet they'd have the time of their lives raiding his gun collection, try me bitch and your brother will be rotting in a prison cell." "You evil bitch." He yelled edging closer to me "you didn't think I came out her on a whim did you, you should know better I'm always prepared." "Whatever fuck this, and fuck you" as he said that Cyra took joy and flattening his tire The bottle blonde stood there intently watching the whole scene play out looking as if she wanted to speak up but couldn't find the courage. I turned back to Josh I could tell he was steaming but what could he do, I had him cornered ; he seemed to realize that and turned to calling out to his blonde whore. "Tiffany" he called out to her walking back into he brothers worn down house wearing a look of defeat on his face.

Cyra walked over to me. "I'm so proud of you, I didn't think you had it in you." "Please I wish the fuck I would let some bum ass nigga play me" and with that I turned to walk towards her Jeep satisfied with my art work. Cyra dropped me off at home on the way we stopped at Wendy's to get a 4 for $4. I walked into my apartment ate and crashed watching my favorite episode of Friends but not before thinking "I Jazmine Sullivan-ed someone"

I'm gonna end this chapter here, it just seems fitting. I didn't want to drag this chapter and ruin the tone of it. This update is long over due, I'll try to be more consistent since I'm on summer vacation. I'll work on making my chapters longer in the future. Hope you guys like it. As I wrote this chapter I was watching the Troll movie. (don't judge that movie is amazing) Much love everyone !
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- Day Day