today is the day when stokeley gets outta the hospital.
i woke up then put a bra and underwear on, and i put some regular clothes on. then checked my phone.
99-- well now 100 notifications.
i checked the groupchat.
purpp- aye aye ski get out today, we needa get turnt
ski-hell yeah im down
jahseh- sounds good but yall forgetting i have a daughter.
purpp- babysitter?
jahseh- shes literally 4 months old now. probably not.
pump- xans on me
...
me- shit, i wanna have fun. and hayley will just get a babysitter
jahseh- you sure baby?
me- NIGGA WE IN THE SAME HOUSE, SAME ROOM, SAME BED. WHATCHU TEXTIN FOR.
i checked the groupchat, which was only 99 messages.
i opened the other text.
ski- come to this party.
i locked my phone, and went to check on hayley who was still asleep. today all i had to do was go to the dentist, which was at 2, its 9 now.
i went into the bathroom and turned the shower water on, and one by one, i took each article of clothing off. then i got in the shower and wet my hair, then looked down to my feet. i got tangled in my thoughts again.
i love jahseh, but im kinda feelin ski
i finished my shower-- and my thoughts, then put on the most basic outfit in 2016-17
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then i did makup, hair, brushed my teeth, blah blah.
its 12 now and i grabbed my phone and deleted me and ski's conversation, and went out to the living room where jahseh and hayley were playing, i played with her while jah got dressed. "i wanna get her some shoes" he said. "shoes?" i said. "shes 4 months old, she doesnt need shoes like that, they're not good for her foot development, the shoes she has are fine" i said.
we played with hayley until 1.
then i left and drove for 50 minutes to the dentist, the dentist i go to is one of the best in the country so its always packed and the appointments never start on time. i didnt actually go in until 2:30, and i came out at 2:45, then i went by five guys and ate by myself like a loner, then i went to AT&T and paid the phone bill, then stopped by Nicole's house.
Nicole is 19, and she has babysat Hayley 3 times so far, and they seem to click so i like her. i told her i would bring Hayley along with her necessities to Nicoles apartment, she would need to watch Hay overnight, I just said i would pay her $500 to watch her from 5pm-around 9am the next day. She agreed, then complimented my 2016 outfit.
I went back home and packed Hayley up, then me and jah took her to nicole's apartment, got her set up then kissed hayley goodbye.
we made a stop to grab beer, and arrived at pumps place.
not shortly after, they started pill poppin, and poppin bottles, i on the other hand had a few beers, and did not pop a xanax.
jahseh started kissing on my neck.
"jah stop, you're drunk" i said over the music
"bitch im not drunk-- drunk at all" jahseh said
i rolled my eyes and sighed.
"bitch?" i said
"yeah biiiiittttccchhh" he said.
then he said some hurtful things so i just left. and i drove home.
i sat on the couch and thought:
he didnt mean that
he's just drunk
thats your husband
he loves you
then i heard the door open, and ski came in and sat down.
"listen--" he started
"--i like you Stokeley" i said quickly
he looked at me then smiled.
we talked for a few.
"why dont you come home with me, i dont wanna leave yo fine ass alone" ski said taking my hand.
i followed.
"ski wait" i said
he turned around.
i kissed him and i felt him grab my butt, he pulled away and said:
"all of this can wait til we get to my place" he said.
