Only Me [On Hold]

Dont let me be gone

Thank you for suggesting this in the comments and for reading all of "Only Us." <3
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"I don't need fucking pills!" Sam yelled. He already felt bad enough he didn't want to have to take pills, he didn't want to be a freak. No he wasn't trying to insult people who had to take pills but it made him feel like he was different. Like he had a problem. "Sam your barley getting any sleep and every time you do you wake up from another nightmare I'm trying to help you." Colby replied much more calm. "Why, why do you care so much about me!?" Sam knew he was slightly overacting but in his defense he hasn't been getting much sleep. "Because I l- because your my best friend Sam and like a good human being I'm worried about you." Colby said. Sam wondered what he was going to say before he cut himself off. Because I love you. Sam almost laughed at his own stupidity. Colby could never like him back let alone love him. "Please just take the pills. I want my Sammy back." Colby continued getting desperate. Sam paused. He felt a hint of hurt rising in him. What was wrong with him?Did Colby really hate him that much that he needed to be "fixed"? He just wanted Colby to accept him- he wanted to be loved. That alone was enough to make him give in. 
"Fine." Sam didn't want to fight with Colby anymore. He grabbed the pill bottle harshly. He had to take two pills every night. He grabbed a glass and went into the bathroom to take the pills. He just wanted to sleep. He missed the days before the nightmares when he could just sleep away his pain. He missed when he could close his eyes and this world would disappear. He missed when he could shut it all off like a switch. Colby gave him some water with ice in it. Some ice was floating perfectly fine on the top but the rest was trapped under. That ice was drowning. That's how sam felt. He felt trapped by his mind and drowning in his emotions. I wish you would love me like I love you.