Drama, chaos and grade 7

Putting me down

Sorry I haven't written in a while guys, I guess I just didn't have stuff that important come up in my life.

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So I'm starting a new sport. I haven't told any of my friends yet though. It's kinda like I can't tell them. They'll think it's weird and then they'll probably say "there's no way your gonna do that". It's not exactly the nicest thing. Quinn always says that to me. Like I'll say something and she'll say back "ya right". It's almost like she never has faith in me to try something new. I guess I'm just a fangirl that has no active skills in her, to everyone else in my school. I always thought friends were supposed to support you, and I understand why Quinn doesn't. She's like a sister to me and she's gotten to the point where she thinks she can put me down all the time. Sure I can handle it once in a while. But not all the time. I really really like this sport and if anyone tells me I can't do it, I'll end up thinking I can't do anything. If you haven't noticed I'm really sensitive. I'll believe anything you tell me. Especially when it comes to self-esteem issues. No I won't kill myself because of it. I'll just feel like I can't do it.

A couple months ago Jackie used to say "nobody likes you go away" to me, but obviously as a joke. She said it for awhile and then I just couldn't take it anymore. I started to believe a little bit of it. I talked to her about it and she understood. She immediately stopped saying it and to this day, she hasn't said it once.

Anyways I just wanted to get one thing straight. Don't ask me what I'm starting to compete in, because I won't tell you. I feel like even if I tell someone, they won't have faith in me. I can't trust anyone. Even if they don't say anything about it. I feel like they'll call me fat and say I can't do it. Even if they don't say it, I know they'll be thinking it.

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Sorry my chapters have been kinda short. There's not a lot to say about one thing. I can't wait to start the sport, ITS GONNA BE AWESOME.

**thanks for reading!!! I can't believe I have 900 reads already!!**

See ya guys.