Drama, chaos and grade 7

Left out by a million miles

This chapter might be a bit rude but it hurts me. So I went to Tessa's house today with Payton and Charlotte. Well I felt so left out. They were all talking about boys and when I tried to say something Tessa told me to shut up and most of the time she didn't even laugh at the end as a joke. It made me feel like I just wanted to leave. I wanted to go see Rosie. I wanted to talk to Rosie, I felt so left out. When I'm with rosie and Bella and Chloe and kallie I never feel left out. But when I'm with them it sucks. Charlotte was the only one who was actually nice to me and talked to me. Tessa and Payton decided they were gonna walk away from us and that didn't make me feel well. They went to a bench (we were at a park) and sat down and talked. Charlotte walked up to them and then she listened to what they were saying. She started to talk with them. I then walked over and Tessa looked at me with one of those "go away" looks. I felt so home sick. I just wanted to leave, go home and curl up in a ball. I wanted to cry then and there. It's such a horrible feeling.

Anyways so we got to Tessa's house and we went to her room. I said me and payton had to go and we actually really did, it was getting dark. Both payton and Tessa were ganging up on me. Payton wasn't being a very good friend by saying "well you can go I'll just get my dad to pick me up" and Tessa agreed with her. I ended up stay longer than intended and i felt more excluded longer. Lovely time to be alive.

I love when they both say they'll miss me when i move but really? Will you really? You'll just forget about me after about 2 months. I only believe Rosie when she says that. No not in one of those mean girl ways. But she made me believe that she actually would.

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I tired 💤😴 I miss when boys were never a topic. And I miss when everyone included eachother, or was that just a myth?