i never write better than when i write
when my eyes are full of tears
when my heart is full of song
and when my head is full of sorrow.
it's easier to write simple things
straightforward things
without trying to be secretive
or poetic.
sometimes i just don't have the gas for it
the motivation to be wordy
because it takes a lot
and i receive so little in return.
that's a lot like life
where i put in so much
where i try so hard
and i get nothing as payment.
where it's easier
to do things simply
to do things meaninglessly
and just get it over with painlessly.
but the work of a writer cannot accept that
they cannot settle for painless words
for the art of poetry
comes at a cost.
they feel in order to be felt
in order to release
to feel pain deeper than before
and die for their stanzas.
sporadic
broken
charged
the poem and the poet.
