I'm A Walking Time Bomb

Five

     I sat on my blanket with Aaron and Colby on the other side of Aaron, then Sam on another towel on my opposite side of Aaron. Right now everyone was making some hot dogs and talking. But, I wasn't.

     I was making a hot dog and staring into the fire. I loved the way it made my toes warm, and made my slightly pink nose hot. I was only in my shorts and I stole Aaron's hoodie from his car because I was so cold. I had the hood up as I still didn't have my wig on, and I didn't care to either.

     Soon we were all pretty much done with the food and talking. But, Colby and I were digging into a bag of chips while Elton played on the acoustic guitar. It sounded really familiar and nobody caught on, so I started to sing and tap on my thighs,

     "Everybody loves the things you do, From the way you talk, To the way you move, Everybody here is watching you, 'Cause you feel like home, You're like a dream come true, But if by chance you're here alone, Can I have a moment, Before I go? 'Cause I've been by myself all night long, Hoping you're someone I used to know, You look like a movie, You sound like a song, My God, this reminds me, Of when we were young" I gradually got louder and louder. I looked around at everyone while smiling and singing.

      Kat soon joined in with me, which made it ten times better to me. I reached over Sam and grabbed her hand while we sung along. But soon, we came to an end and when it did, my eyes landed back on the fire and I had let go of her hand.

     Nobody said anything, but Elton continued to strum. I was more focused on the flames then anything. As a Pyromaniac, it's all I was focused on. "Boo!" I heard in my ear loudly as hands grabbed me. I jumped and turned my head around to see Justin. He gave me a smile while everyone laughed and I glared at him.

      He sat between Sam and me and put his arm over me. He was wearing sweat pants and a hoodie, he had bags under his eyes and his hair was really messy. "Why are you going back to Canada, Justin? Why aren't you staying with Bev's?" I looked over at my brother shyly who looked over at Kat before replying "Well I actually talked to some people and I won't be going home. But, Beverly better knock everything off of her list because when we get back her doctor said we can't leave again" I frowned and looked down at my hands.

       I was aware what he said was true, I just didn't like it. I've only been to the US one other time and that was to surprise Kat. "What about if chemo works?" I laughed dryly while looking up at the fire.

      Everyone looked at me, but I just didn't care. Justin started talking and I couldn't focus on it. I was too distracted watching the flames dance together, listening to the small crackles every so often.

     I guess I didn't realize how long it had been because the next time I looked up, it was completely dark and you could only seen anything around the fire, and hear the light crashes of the waves near us. Also, everyone was making Smore's already.

                                   Tonight was a good night, side from me being distracted a lot..