Your POV (you are 12 years old)
I was just coming home. I lived in a flat in London with my dad. He was on tour right now but he would be back at the end of the week. At the thought of him I smiled. I missed him terribly. He called me every day and made me smile even if it was just for the moment.
Because in the main time I got bullied because of him. They called me names in school. They say that I'm fat, ugly and worthless. I never was one with much security, so it got me quite bad. It was too much to handle for a 12 year old. I started cutting. I hated the idea of destroying me and my skin but at the same time it seems to be my only release.
When I entered the flat I sighed. It would be an evening on my own. But then nobody would tell me that I should go kill myself so in a way it was good as well.
I decided to take a shower. I turned the water on. It was hot and it felt so great. I turned the temperature higher until it burned on my skin. I started crying. I felt myself. The first time on the day. I grabbed my razor and made cuts on my wrists. My vision blurred because of all the tears. I stopped and turned the shower off. I grabbed a towel from the sink and dressed myself in a pair of black sweats and a green tanktop. I didn't think of my scars since I was alone in the flat. Jay would probably come over tomorrow to check on me, but that would be it.
As I walked out of the bathroom all the lights were off. I was scared in the dark so I started to shake and asked:"hello?"
...nothing
I searched for the light. I nearly reached it when suddenly the light got on and my dad started yelling:"KATIE! I'M BACK!"
I flinched at the sudden noise. But I was happy so I ran in his arms. He lifted me up and hugged the death out of me. I started crying again. I missed this so much. The feeling of love. I felt something wet on my shoulder when I realized that it was dad, crying, too. He let me down and smiled at me:"I missed you so much baby girl."
Suddenly his smile faded. I looked down and saw my arms.
Shit.
He saw my scars.
His POV
As I let Katie down I looked at her and smiled. She changed. She got thinner. And her hair grew longer. She was so beautiful. The look on her face was so sad.
I gasped when I saw her wrists. There were about 15 fresh cuts on it. I looked at her in shock. I stared back at her wrists. She followed my eyes and realized what I was staring at. She turned her wrists so I couldn't see her cuts anymore and ran away in her room.
Not one word was said. She knew that I knew what it was. I started crying. I should have never been going on tour and leaving her. I was responsible for this. I told mum and dad to check on her. I thought she was strong enough. I've sent her on a boarding school and she was only at weekends alone in the flat. I knew this was a mistake. I tried to catch breath. I needed to be strong for my daughter. Her mum wouldn't have want to see her like that.
I knocked on her door:"Sweetheart, open the door please!"
"No", she sniffled
I sighed:"You know we need to talk about it. We can just do it or going the hard tour. We both know that. You can't just lock up and except me to do nothing about it.
"Why not, Dad? I mean the last three weeks it was ok. You weren't there, don't act like you are interested in me!", she said sad
"I'm so sorry. I love you. And I care about you. I always did. I was away. And I want to know everything. What happened to you?", I whispered
I heard her crying through the door and it was killing me.
"You can open the door now or I will break it, I swear to the queen Katie Blue Tomlinson!", I said.
She knew I was serious since I used her full name.
She opened the door slowly. I pushed it open and embraced her in a hug. She cried on my shoulder."What happened? What in gods name happened to you katie?", I asked her and loosend the grip.
I took her arm and touched her scars. Her whole arm was full with them. I sobbed.
"Please stop crying Dad, please!", she begged
I just nodded. She started to explain:"I was so sad lately. People in school are calling me names. I feel like everything's tumbling down. I can't smile anymore. And it was kinda the last solution for me. I know it sounds stupid, because I have everything..."
"Stop it Katie. It's not stupid. it's the opposite. I was stupid. You needed me here and I wasn't. I'm incredibly sorry. You will come with me on tour and get home schooled. I won't leave you alone ever again. But please stop. Stop destroying yourself. Or at least try. Everybody loves you. Please come to me or the boys! ", he interrupted me.
Your PO
I just nodded and hugged him again. He took me bridal style to the bathroom and started to clean my cuts with a sad look on his face.
I sat there feeling absolutely empty.
When he finished he took me to the living room and we cuddled on the couch. He kept on whispering things he loved about me in my ear.
I got tired and I drifted off.
The last thing I heard was Dad saying:"And one day you will see yourself like I do. One day you will be happy and see how beautiful you are!"
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