The Not So Desolate Life of Skylar Brown (Slow Updates)

Self Reflection/Introducing Rocky

Chapter 12

I pull out my phone before class starts. I unlock my phone look for my messages with Jake. I click on them and quickly start typing.

Jake, you're a really nice boy and I get that you like me and stuff. But this just can't happen, I'm sorry. Just thought of you being in the same room as Zeke and I makes both of us feel uncomfortable. Jake please don't come. I'm sorry I have to tell you this but I don't want my relationship to be anymore messed up.

I hit send right as the bell rings.

I have to go to my last class before lunch. I need time alone. I ask the annoying teacher who no one likes if I may use the restroom. I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I see my orange hair. It's up in a messy bun for today because I was lazy. I see my brown eyes with a little too much eye liner on. I have a lot of makeup on my eyes. The longer I look at myself the more I see problems with me. I kneel onto the disgusting bathroom floor, I grab my hair into my fists. Why does Jake have to be such a problem? I can't do this. This is already way too much pressure plus picking a college. If I even get into one, I can't do this anymore.

As I feel the hot tears roll down my face I hear the bathroom door open. It's some girl I've never seen before.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Are you alright?" The girl asks me. She has long blonde hair, she's wearing a black t-shirt of a band that I didn't know. She also had this red plaid shirt over it with ripped jeans. "My name is Roxanne by the way, but you can call me Rocky, Roxie whatever." Rocky, I guess, tells me.

"Yeah, I guess I'm fine. Just some relationship problems." I say whipping away my tears. I try to stand up, but my leg is asleep.

"Here, let me help." Rocky offers holding out her hand. I take her offer and she helps me up.

"Thanks." I say looking at the black smeared across my face. "Ugh, I need to get waterproof everything." I say sighing leaning against the sink.

"Do you want me to help?" Rocky asks.

"This is where I come when I'm upset too." She tells me.

"I haven't really been that upset this year, but now, it's bad." I say looking at my faded red converse.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Rocky asks. I open my mouth to say something, but the door swung open, a freshman walks in but Rocky turned around to face the girl.

"Hey, do you mind?" She asks.

"I just had to-" The girl starts, but Rocky cuts her off.

"Can you like, go to the boys bathroom or something?" Rocky says.

"What? But the boys use that bathroom!" The girl exclaims.

"Yes, good job you know your anatomy. Now run along before I force you out of here." Rocky threatens the small girl. The girl runs out to the hallway very fast.

"Wow." Is all I can say.

"Yeah, some people say I'm pushy, but I like to think of myself as a bitch. I know I am but you know." Rocky says shrugging.

I laugh, this is the only time I've laughed a real laugh since getting back home.

"So, where were we before we got so rudely interrupted?" Rocky asks.

"I was going to tell you why I'm upset." I say looking back at the ground.

"Alright, go ahead, I hate math anyway." She says with a sly smile.

So I start with when Zeke and I went to Colorado, I go on about how he got hurt and we were at the hospital for a few days. I tell her about Jake and how he's coming to school here and how I felt about that.

"Did you tell Jake all this?" She asks me.

"Yeah." I say quietly. "This is all just going to make Zeke even more awkward. He's socially awkward already but now, I don't even know how awkward he'll be." I tell her.

"Is Zeke that kid with the crutches who never talks and is really attractive?" She asks me.

"Yep." I say ignoring the attractive part, I knew other girls thought this.

"Oh and before you think of me as a boyfriend stealing bitch, I'm not, I meant attractive in an awkward way." She explains.

"Yeah, Zeke is different for sure." I say with a sigh.

"Well, yeah. He cares about you a lot. I mean he took you to see snow for the first time. He probably loves you more than you can imagine." Rocky tells me. "You should sit with me at lunch." Rocky says. "I'm the outcast that no one sits with." She says with a big smile walking out of the bathroom. I look at my phone clock and see that I've only been gone for seven minutes. Wow, I thought it was way longer than that. I fix my makeup and leave the bathroom. I'm glad Rocky was there in time before I did anything stupid.

I walk out into the hall to see Zeke hobbling over towards me. I smile and hug him when he gets close enough for me to reach out to him.

"What's wrong? You've been gone for like ten minutes?." Zeke asks me with a worried look on his face.

"I was stressed that's all, it's fine now." I say burrowing my face into his warm chest.

"That's good, we should probably get back to class though." He says letting me go from his warm embrace.

"Alright." I say with a sigh. We walk back to class, my arm around his.

I feel happy.

A/N

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