Let Me Live [Andley](On Hold)

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Looking down at his phone Ashley sighed. He had sent a text out to him 30 minutes ago, told him that he wanted to talk with him tonight after rehearsal and all he got was a side eye glance and a small "yeah," from him. It was now nearing ten, and he still wasn't here. Although; he should have known the boy would have ditched him and gone somewhere else. Probably to another bar with Danny to get blasted drunk. Again. He knew he wouldn't be out with Scout; if he was Ashley would have seen the boy happy and told him exactly where he was going. Then again, he didn't tell him he was hanging out with her earlier today; so why should he expect him to tell him anyway? He didn't tell him a lot of things anymore.

It concerned the bassist greatly to know how much the boy was keeping inside of him. He was so young, in the spotlight, touring around the country, and trying to handle his personal life at the same time. He had so much going on from the band's new album released, their meet and greet with free concert at Hollywood and Highland to promote album soon, to their second big break coming up with Warped Tour in a few weeks just after doing Download Festival in the United Kingdom, his relationship was on thin ice, he was scared of people still finding out his secret, he was slowly fall back on old habits of not eating...

All of it concerned him so much. He knew there was more too, yet it pained him to think about it. He didn't want Andy to be in pain, he didn't like seeing the boy like this. He didn't want to see him going like this at all. In truth, Ashley didn't know what he was going to do if Andy continue doing what he did. He didn't even know what the rest of the guys were going to do if Andy continue doing what he did. If Andy continued what he was doing, Ashley knew it wouldn't end well for them all, especially Andy and him. He owned half the band, pretty much took Andy's idea and helped him build it to what it was today, designed a lot of their merch with Andy's input as well, got them out of a bad contract with Standby Records, hell he even helped Andy get on his feet when he met the boy after he declined so many times. Really, if it wasn't for him, Andy wouldn't be where he was now, and if he wasn't for Andy, he wouldn't be where he was now either. Fuck, CC, Jinxx, and Jake wouldn't be where they are now. None of them would be where they are now.

Entangling his fingers in his hair, he closed his eyes tightly taking in a deep breath to calm himself down, he grabbed his phone with his free hand to check the notifications one last time before noticing the time. It seriously now close to ten and he needed to go home. Andy wasn't coming at all, so there was no point in staying. Plus, he didn't feel like sitting here and drinking a hell of a lot either.

"I'll have one more shot." Ashley called out to the bartender. "And my bill."

"Sure thing. Same shot of whiskey you had before?"

Ashley nodded. He needed one last drink before he went home. He wasn't drunk, so he would be fine to drive back home and relax. If he could relax. Once he got worried about Andy, relaxation was the least of his worries and on the bottom of his list. There would be nights when they toured in his old van and Andy was exhausted from being on stage, stressing himself out, destroying his body by not taking care of himself, drinking to much, getting sick, all he would do was worry and try to care for the boy as much he was able to. When he gave him help, Andy would a lot of the times decline, sometimes when he desperately needed help he wouldn't ask for it; yet when it got to a certain point, Andy asked for the help and Ashley couldn't say no to it.

He cared for a lot for him, he saw a lot of himself when he first came out to Hollywood in Andy, and he didn't want to fall into what he fell into. Andy was fragile as it was already with everything going on in his life. He was ready to break down at any moment if anything else happened to him, so if he got into what Ashley did...the bassist knew Andy wouldn't survive and that terrified him greatly.