Honesty is the best policy, my mom used to tell me before her fucking cancer took over her life. But honestly, if I was honest at the moment, Renny wouldn't even be my friend, she's all I have so I have to keep it to myself. I used to have Cameron, but he was very verbally abusive, used to get in my face a lot when I was angry, that's what drove me over the edge.
"Ehem?" My dad cleared his throat and snapped me out of my thoughts. I was sitting on the couch with a cup of ginger tea in my hand watching Degrassi, my dad standing in front of me snapping.
"S-sorry, I was thinking.." I said putting two hands on my cup.
"About what?" He asked sitting beside me on the big blue couch.
"Cameron and Renny.. I honestly don't know what to do anymore.." I said looking down at my cup.
"Stop worrying about it! Want me to take care of Cameron? He's probably the one causing all this, you haven't been talking and acting the same ever since he's been having contact with you."
"No, it's ok.. I just have to talk to him myself, that's the only way to make him understand, I am 17. I should be able to." I said reassuring my dad who was slowly rising from the couch,
"Okaaaaay, but if there's anything on, anything at all! You know who to talk to." He winked,
"Who? Mom?" I joked. He glared and laughed, and shook his head and walked into the kitchen and grabbed a coffee then into his room. I set my tea down on the coffee table and grabbed my phone and typed in Cameron's number, I texted him and told him to meet me at the park in 10. He agreed and then I grabbed my tea and poured it down the sink, because I knew I wouldn't be back for a while.
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"Cameron?" I said looking around the park.
"Coming!" He jogged over to the bench I was by. "Hey, what exactly did you need?" I sat down. I kinda kept quiet for a bit and then talked,
"Why do you keep trying to make friends with me?" I asked looking at his dark brown eyes, they were exactly how I remember them..
"I just miss having you around all the time." He sat down quietly.
"Well, I think it was better that we aren't together."
"Why?"
"Because, I.. I didn't like it.." I said quietly.
"Why didn't you like it? Wasn't I a good boyfriend?" He said placing his hand on my shoulder and looking into my now, grey eyes.
"Honestly?"
"Yes."
"No." I sighed, "No you weren't.." I said with a long breath. It went silent and he let go of my shoulder and turned forwards.
"I'm sorry." He said with a deep voice.
"It's ok, just next time-"
"Wait? There's a next time?"
"I wish there could be, I just wished you would have realized what you did, sooner." I said turning away from him.
"I wish I could too! But it's too late for that now! Your out of my life and I hate it!" He stood up furiously.
"Cameron! Calm down! Just because I'm not in your life doesn't mean you can't find other girls."
"Yes it does! IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR YOU FOR THE PASSED YEAR AND I FINALLY FOUND YOU AND YOU WONT EVEN GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE!" He yelled angrily up in my face, just like old times.
"WELL MAYBE STOP THINKING IM GIVING YOU A SECOND CHANCE. YOU RUINED IT FOR YOURSELF AND ITS NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE. YOUR NOT.. My problem anymore.." I said calming myself down. I felt so bad, I probably just broke my old bestfriends/boyfriends heart.
But why do I care?
