For Only You ⭐ 5SOS ft Dolan Twins

Nobody Can Save Me Now // Ashton Irwin

The cold bite my skin as I crawl into a ball without anyting but my clothes on. Wrecking ball inside my head couldn't escape as it hit my numb head.

I'm hanging off the edge. Storm clouds gather beneath me. Waves break above my head.

My heart is dropped from miles feet away. My eyes are burning like they were burning flame of bonfire. It's not about the little rain cloud always following me, not like that. It was so much worse than that. I have created my own thunderstorm while everyone want to create rainbow as much as they can. It was so hard to create your own rainbow in a moment like this.

I tried my best not to look back with what happened, but it was still haunting me until today. I'm the chaos from all of the riots out there. Sometimes, I asked to myself, who the hell am I?

I asked infront of the mirror, but my reflection always answer me with silence. I wish I could ended all the pain and the struggles. Wish I had a way back to when I was just a little kid. No fear, no feelings, no worries, my life was perfect until I found out someting and made me realize that I was the nightmare for them.

Maybe if I wasnt here they dont have to be worried about me and my future?

Blasting music to my ears with headphone that I wore couldn't affect me from the thunderstorms that I made. I need a little light to help me find a way back for just the way it was.

I have thought to take away my life, but when I began to rewind and thinkin of it again, it wasn't the best decision at the first place.

From the bottom of my heart I want to discuss with my parents what was going in my head like right now. But I dont think they will understand me and neither me will understand them.

We have a different point of view, what was best for me it was not quite good for them. Opposite of it makes me want to bury myself in the sand and couldn't nowhere to be found.

I just keep these things alone. No one knows. Even them; my parents or my brother. Maybe it was the best decision for me to keep it all just to myself. I feel so small like an atom.

As the sun came and I should go to school, I was a different person. When I was at my house maybe you will just see me gloomy all day, but when i was at school maybe you could describe me with one word; colorful. But for me, being colorful was the real old me, not the new me.

When the last periods end, I decided to calm myself down and started to think everything in the school garden. I waited everyone to gone home first before I went to this place. When I'm 100% sure there's no students around the school, I made my way to my destination.

"Tell me, what's going on." Someone said to me as I was zoning out in the school garden, alone, when I started hallucinated someshits that I hope would become a reality.

I thought I was alone.

"Zoning out." I truly honest with this guy, cause even though I lied he will found out everything. But he still didn't know that right now I was in my lowest part of my life.

"All you need is maybe a little break from these boring routine." He said with the toothy smile. "Nice suggestion, but how? How can you escape from the nightmare that yourself have created?" I asked him with scanning through his eyes.

"Listen, Theresia. Do something that made yourself happy and don't mind yourself. Just be yourself, be your old self." Ashton was playing with a flower on his hand that I can conclude he picked it from the fresh flower plants section in here.

"You want some?" I opened a pack of gum and then started chewing two pieces in a row. "No, thank you, I couldn't eat that."

"Was it because the sugar content?" He just shrugged his shoulder and still playing with the flower on his hand.