RoadTrip imagines

i didn't know trigger

Au: they're doing vlogs, roadtrip comes later on in their life.

The camera began to film the scene in front of it with discarded pillows , masses of tissues and a mountain of clothes. Mikey stared at his own reflection feeling disgust and sorrow. " hello internet so"  Mikey attempted to say breaking down in sobs. : I can't fucking do this. Pretend at all that's it's all  fine because it's not and it never will be again." He glanced at the camera making slight contact with the cracked lens. " A..Andy he.. he committed suicide" the words penetrated his head as the room spun slightly he felt his world crashing down. Every word he said felt like poison on his tongue.  Nothing was ever going to be fine " I was and still am so stupid I was too caught up in my own selfish reasons to notice his pain and the scars. I didn't even realise he thought I be better without him. How fucking crazy is that?" Rivers cascaded down his face as he mourned his loss. " i..i didn't even comprehend it I thought this was all a dream... shit" he cried to the heavens as the camera caught him , quite like an animal, tearing his room to shreds.
" Why? Why wasn't it me Andy deserved happiness. How did my lion end up dead in a pool of his own blood?
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Mikey  tossed and turned , he woke up drenched with sweat. "Andy?" He heard crashes and bath like noises. Who takes a bath at 5am Mikey thought after checking his phone. " Andy what're you doing. Baby stop you're scaring me. " I crept ever closer to the bathroom fear encasing me in it's tight grasp. I slowly pushed the door open there lying in a bath of his own blood was my baby pale and covered in cuts and various bath items as well as an empty pill bottle with a note inside. " shit no no  no Andy fuck why did you do this."  Dan quickly grabbed hi phone and dialled 999
Hello this is the ambulance service please specify....
" help please! My boyfriend has tried to commit suicide there's pills everywhere and oh.. So so much blood I think im gonna pass out."
Ok what's the address  your name and the patients ? Sir if you need to sit down do.  Take deep breaths.
My name's Mikey he's called Andy he's 23 I'm 21
can you please stay on the phone,  can you tell me if there's a pulse  if not  you'll need to attempt resusitation
" shit there's a pulse but its weak just hurry please."
Okay I need you to start resusitation. Dan can you do that? Place the heel of your hand on his chestbone and I need you to push hard and  fast at least two compressions a second. count 4 then give him two breaths plugging his nose.
" 1...2...3...4 ... two... 1...2..3...4"
Is the ambulance there yet Mikey?
Yeah yeah I think the  doors unlocked  they just came In.
Ok I'll  leave you with them.if that's all  right please sit down too

Bye thanks. Mikey shakily sat down as the room spun and the paramedics helped Andy. The next sentence he'd never forget
" time of death 8:22pm February 1st 2017"
Mikey just passed out there and then. His mind was foggy and unclear as he woke. " hey just lay down there Mikey I'm Katie you're ok. Would you like a drink?
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" that's how Andrew Robert Fowler died because I was asleep." Mikey bitterly chuckled "I'll be away for a while or forever. Please leave me alone  and Andy's family alone. Bye"
Mikey crashes  to the floor cradling his last picture of phil and him kissing. " I'm sorry I didn't know. I will always love you my  cactus to infinity and beyond."

Andy looked down sniffling " I love you too."