16 Years of Confessions

Mistake

I let you in...like a phantom in disguise you caressed my being but only let me see what you were seeing. Under the mask you wore...inside hate you stored...Chained to remorse from a desolate course I am pinned up against a wall!!! Life sucks me dry and I wonder why..when I put myself behind the enemies line and purposely threw myself into havoc..I think I've lost my swing, hate is all I bring. I'm staring into the black abyss that portrayed itself to be bliss. Now my heart made of glass has been dropped from a sky high tower, looking down I watch it shatter. 
My frame is thin, I confess you win. You had me in a spin and I walked around carrying love like a fin. Flutter, my heart now soft like butter. Whispers you utter that seem to be faint, you throw out words you think are quaint. Ah ha is what you mutter, thinking I don't know your under cover. Thought anger was behind me but right now I spin on a hate wheel. Pitter patter goes the hourly clatter of my false existence that you thought tapping into with persistence could break me...On the edge now, so close to the ledge, looking down contemplating a pledge. 
Hand on heart as it rips apart... Miracles seem so far away, I need not beg you to stay..cuz I'd just be another pawn in your play...Shreds are falling, fists are bawling! Don't caress my world with your words that you've built up and stored..while waiting for the perfect moment to lure me in...ah I see your sin...It's more than I can take, I smash your words like cake. The sweetness has left your performance because I see right through you, ripping apart the glue, as I walk away, I see you. 
Don't reach out another time, clocks ticking and can't rewind. I've ended the chase, don't follow me with haste....Blurry is our memories and I stand on ripped black and white pictures..Color has left our faces, have I covered all the bases??? Never again will you steel, I'm taking back the wheel....Gone, all you see is my back, I'm not coming back and that's a fact from my final act...