Is It Even Possible?

CHAPTER 6

As I enter my room and face my study table. I found two letter, one in pink and white.

I first open the white.

Dear: Zyanya

My dearest Zyanya I know its been years since we came home. But be ready me and your father will arrived there, by next week or probably, the day of the death anniversary of your Ate.

I love you my baby.

-Mom

Nung natapos kong basahin yung letter na galing pala kay Mommy. Nakaramdam ako ng kaba at the same time excited. Because this was the first time that mom let me know that they are coming home.

Next I open the pink one

Dear: Amanda

He is mine now. And you cant change the fact that your all time crush is mine. And mine alone! Leave him alone! But dont worry dear, this is not the last wait for the next and Im sure you wont take it anymore.

-Your Prettiest worst nightmare

This is the second letter that I had receive from this certain person. The first was just like this. Puro pagbabanta. Nasinasabing layuan ko daw siya. And I dont know kung yung tinutukoy niya ba ehh si Zack or ano.

Pero kung si Zack nga isa lang ang alam ko. Yung pinsan kong may sira sa ulo. Pero sana naman wag. Dahil pag ako nalaman kong niloloko niya lang si Zack para masaktan ako. Ipapasubsub ko siya sa malapakwan niyang hinaharap.

*kring *kring

Mom calling...

"Hello Mom"

"this is your dad"

"oh, dad, ikaw pala, how are you po?"

"Im fine. Be ready for next week youll meet your fiancee."

"What? Dad Im still young--" dad cit me off

"no more buts thats final. Even just for once Zyanya please do something good and proper!" he shouted.

I had heard mom voice trying to stop dad.

And the next thing mom is the one talking

"dont mind your dad baby he is just stress out. Will be going home next week friday."

"mom. About my fiancee it is true?"

"Im sorry baby. But yes. We will talk about it when we come home." and I heard dads voice from the background. "stop comforting that girl. She desrve that! She useless anyway. If only Krishna is here it is more easy." Sa pagkawala ni ate si dad ang pinaka na apektohan. "Sige na baby Ill hang up now where going somewhere. Bye ingat ka."

"sige po mom. I lo-- *toot*" --ve you po.

As I let my phone touch my bed as well as my tears fall down.

I wake up with sore eyes. And I don't feel attending my class today. But I don't have a choice.

So I start my morning routines and so on

"Oh Zyana hali ka at kakain na" tawag sa akin ni manang nang makita niya akong  pababa ng hagdan

"Wala po akong gana nay. Una na po ako. Bye po ingat po kayo dito."

"Nakung bata ka. Eto kainin no kung sakaling mag wala mga alaga mong dragon sa tyan  mo."  Sabay abot sa akin ng isang sandwich.

"Thank you nay. Bye po"

"Sige ingat ka."

After bidding good byes I go my way to school

As I reach our classroom no ones there so I decided to occupy the seat at the back and duck my head so I can sleep.

But before I was able to fall a sleep a group of girls enter the room.

"Ohh didn't you know na Ma'am Mel is out today so lets hunt boys"

"really she's out?!"

"Yup so what are we waiting for lets go"

And they had vanish as if they die if they wont

I continue to duck at my desk and start entering my dream land

I don't know how long I had slept but I gain my consciousness by a sound of a guitar. as I open my eyes I saw James peacefully sleeping and beside him is Bernard busy himself. I decided to sit straight and look in front.

As I turn my sight in front my sight was lock with two hazel nut eyes full of emotions as he strum the guitar he was holding. I immediately turn my sight off of his gaze and duck again in my desk murmuring words.

"he is not looking at you he is not. Wag kanang umasa Amanda hindi para sayo yun." I convince myself

the strumming of the guitar was stop so I decided to look at him once again and it was not the right choice because he is still looking at me.

Why on Earth he will look at me? thousand of questions are running on my mind. I don't know what to do. what am I suppose to do now?

I don't know what comes into my mind and stand and run outside. I don't know where am I going but I found myself standing at the garden of the school. I sat at one of the benches there. There are some student around the field but there no student at the garden at this time because they are all busy watching the practice game of the soccer players.

As I sat down things got more clearer. yeah its true talunan ako, talunan ako dahil hindi ko magawang umamin, napa ka hina ko na kasi hindi ko kaya, na paka walang kwenta ko kasi wala akong kayang gawin kundi ang umiyak ng umiyak.

I cried my heart out. It hurts so much that my parents doesn't care about me, that my very bestfriend that I love the most ay kailangan kong iwasan at kailangan ko nang pakawalan. Sana kasing manhid nalang ako ng bato ng hindi ko maramdaman kung gano kasakit ang mag isa, kung gano kasakit ang umiyak ng mag isa, ang kumain sa napakalaking hapag kainan ng mag isa. I have all the things I needed but the love and care I'm longing years ago until now is still missing.

I cried and cried until someone hug me from the back.

"It hurts so much that I cant do something for you to stop crying. Hush now..." and my tears flow harder as I realize who is he.

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