my stepsister (book2##)

twenty nine

Jafar

Today, today is the day I would finally see Zarah as my girlfriend, I like zara, I really do and I am most delighted that she accepted me too.

At first it was muna that I liked, I hid my feelings from everyone and never thought of telling anyone except for Jamaal and muhsin, my best friends knew.

But at the very moment where I knew ammar likes her, although he refuse to accept it, it was obvious. I tried my best to not show my feelings and to dislike her, with the help of bestfriends, I did.

And when I started to like Zarah everyone knew, not that I told them. Trust I too wondered how they knew, even marwan and ammar. They kept saying it was all written on my face and sometimes I try checking the mirror to see if I could find anything written on my face showing my affection towards Zara. When I found out and asked her , my friends were happy and so I was, and for ammar who later accepted his feelings for Muna and so his plans For confessing.

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ZARAH'S pov

I was sitting in my room, calculating the time passing, two hours to go and I haven't decided yet. What is it should I do when Muna's word kept me from deciding

You see, in life the hardest and most difficult task is when you are asked to choose between two important persons in your life and when you are to choose your blood ones to your happiness, even if you have the dignity to choice, it is as good as having no choice. A moment where there is answer but can be spoken, a moment to fall face the reality.

Sacrifice, is said the giving up something important and valuable to you to someone in order to make someone happy, but what left out is that sacrifice is a loss, one can make someone happy but the 'one' is at loss

"zarah " Muna who came into my room interrupted me from my thoughts "tell me between jafar, ammar, Jamaal and muhsin. Who's the most handsome?"

What kind of question is this Muna asking?

"they are on the phone now,  I mean ramlah and hanaan. Ramlah chooses Jamaal, hanaan ammar, but I choose jafar" Muna added

"we couldn't add marwan for we know marwan is the most handsome man in this entire world. " ramlah's voice came through the phone.

Yeah, apart from zayed, in my life I haven't seen someone as handsome as marwan, not even jafar. Yes Jafar is handsome, but I like Jamaal's beauty more than jafar.

"Jamaal of course "

"didn't I tell them, Jamaal is so.. " before I could hear the rest of what ramlah was saying Muna was out already.

'but I choose jafar " that's what Muna said, how wouldn't she? After all..

In my life, I have never felt such an intense feeling of worry, I feel lost, just lost in the darkness, in the middle of nowhere, and there's no one else inside. I am losing my mind and I don't want to be like this, I feel insecure, hurt, disappointed, yes disappointment. I am disappointed with myself, for not having answers for my problems, for being naive, stupid, dumb, and also for having a good heart, for not worrying and placing everyone's problems on shoulders . I am not happy for caring too much for others.

Only If caring causes you pain, only if I have someone who cares for me how I do for them.

Flashback

"promise you won't tell anyone "

"I promise just tell me Muna "

"I don't know what's wrong with me, since the day you left for sharjah, I have been having this uneasiness and feelings towards jafar, whenever he's looking at me, my heart skips and I feel my stomach fall. That feeling i have never felt. At first I thought I was sick or something but later I found out that I was falling for jafar, yes I am falling for him, and since we're family friends I know my parents will not question, being you my sister, I know you would gladly help me and accept my intentions after all my happiness is all that matters to you right "

"yeah sure" the smile I plastered was real,  not at all

"so what was it you wanted to tell me zarah "

I was going to tell you that I like jafar and the feeling is mutual. But who am I to speak

"nothing "

Present

Right there and then, when she started, I knew what's coming at end. I couldn't help the tears that started forming in my eyes and cascaded down my cheeks.

Every time we settle on with Muna, something comes up.  But this, this is worst of all. How could I ever tell her that jafar doesn't like her but me, how could I ever tell her that I like her lover, how could I do that.

But what is this, is Muna this blind, everyone knows ammar likes her, even jafar. If truly jafar likes her he wouldn't accept her because of his brother, and if truly Muna likes jafar then I wouldn't accept him because of my sister.

Problem solved. It's a decision that I made, I am going to accept zayed over jafar.

I wiped away my tears, and got dressed. I applied some makeup as I checked the time : it's quarter to seven, I have less an hour to my date with zayed. I read the new address zayed sent me, I went in my mother's room to get my mother's blissful blessing, but she wasn't there, the room is empty. I bid Muna telling her I was off to meet zayed, and she was excited- she thought I was happy.

I was in the car when I saw jafars missed call, I didn't call back, I switched off the phone, wiped the one drop of tear and gave my driver the address to when I would meet zayed.

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So s much of being good hearted