my stepsister (book2##)

thirty two

PRESENTLY AT THE HOSPITAL

Zara

I felt  severe pain in my head, I try to open my eye but couldn't-the pain I feel is agonising, I give up trying and concentrated to hear what the whispers are all about, I could hear murmurs from afar lousy and rowdy. The voices kept nagging in my head, I tried lifting my right hand but couldn't, I tried wobbling my left finger's and was successful at it.

My question is , why am I feeling this pain? where am I? where are the voices coming here? What the heck is happening to me that I can not even my body? The more the I try the more the pain worsen.

Instantly, it hit me, I remembered zayed ditching me on our date, I remembered the men following me, I remembered I hit the ground, but what flashed in blur is what caused me to shake, my body shook and before I know it I felt pain in my head. All i could hear was the rushing of trays and slams of door,......

all because I tried hard to see whom I was with when I fell to the ground...

Soon I heard hands touching my hands and tubes surrounding me, I felt stings -that I know is syringe, for, I felt something cold flow through my veins.

......I felt blank and I dozed off

..

I blinked sharply as the rays of lights disturbed my eyes trying to adjust with the lights ,and when I did, I was revealed with my whole family and friends standing there gawking at me,

What am I?

....

What would I do? Should I talk to them? Should I close my eyes?or should I smile? But what is it to smile at, when all I know is that the person to whom I hold dear had broken my heart. Yes, zayed left me and that is something that runs in my mind every time and second. I have nothing to say and I have nothing to do just like how my family had lost their words and voices right now.

"Zarah" is all my father could utter, I glanced at him, to the person beside him who is Muna, to the next person Ramla, Jafar, Jafar's parent, Ammar, even Jamaal and Muhsin.

Wait!

Someone is missing, someone is suppose to stand next to my father, my mother. Where is she? she can't be at work since her only daughter is at a hospital bed right?, moreover everyone is here, so she has to be too, or maybe am just over thinking, maybe she went out to get water or something, or she's with the doctor, or anything, she has to be at the hospital right? Its not possible that she wouldn't visit me and be with me at the hospital, after all she's my mother ,even with the distances we had when she got married off again.

"She's still unconscious, if you are wondering where your mother is"

As if reading my mind my father said that, he told me where my mother is, he answered my question and I felt hot uninvited tears streaming down my cheeks. I remembered everything, I remembered everything and I remembered everything.

Like I know ,I started to shake and Jafar was the first person to reach me. I couldn't look into his eyes, I didn't have  the guts and audacity to look at his eyes, --shame is all that washes my face as I stare at him guiltily-- trying to on something on the tubes attached to me, desperately.

His eyes met mine and all hell broke loose. I quickly averted my eyes, who am I to look at him? With all the things have done to him. If not for a monster that I am that betrayed a relationship we built in years to some random guy who I barely know.

I cried, I know I cried and cried

I didn't listen to Muna or ramlah's words , all I did was stare at Jafar walking out of the rooms with the boys under my blurred eyes.

I hate myself- that one is long time established and confirmed, and one thing also I will never forgive zayed, but what is it that zayed did? He ditched me yes but it was my decision right, if I had chosen to stay or be with Jafar nothing of such would have happened, I wouldnt be here, I wouldn't have anyone worry, and most importantly I wouldn't hurt my mum, my mother, she who gave me life.

I have my self to blame.
If only I could turn back time
If only...

Just as I was in my thoughts the boys came back in. I smiled at Muna and ramlah who have been talking about something along with hanaan who just came shortly ago

Wait

I just said Muna ,ramlah and hanaan, didn't sound so usual. Its always muna, ramlah and

Oh my god

I called all there attention by coughing and asked hesitantly

"Where the hell is marwa"

_____________________________