Thoughts

Lost

Im lost.

Its been a while.

I think Im finding comfort in being lost.

I think I was away for so long in a world that wasnt mine,

that I forgot how nice it was to be lost.

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At first I was drowning and I couldnt breathe,

but now Im remembering what it was like to only have myself to let down.

Its like I was living a lie.

Here is where I belong.

Here is where I should be.

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Lost.

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Re-reading old poems.

Watching old videos.

Staring at my screen.

Staring at my ceiling.

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I feel bad,

my family is worried,

but this is where Im supposed to be.

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Its crazy how these thoughts come zooming at you,

like bees through a bush once you let them through.

Theres a kind of serenity in being lost.