My hands are shaking so much.
But I have for the first time in my life boys clothes :D
Skinny jeans, a few t-shirts, three shirts and a pullover. (Still no boxershorts, but I'm happy anyways ^_^)
I am so very thankfull for Angel (my dad's wife but feels to me more like a big sister tbh) making this even possible.
Without her I would have never gotten so many clothes at once and even though in the beginning she was calling me weird and said hysterically: "Get away from here before your father sees this!", she stopped and helped me instead <3 :,)
I really need to talk to my therapist (Mrs. Hughes) about this topic.
First I avoided it at all costs, but I can feel that my time of running away and hiding comes to an end. (Sorry if this sounds dramatic xD)
What exactly that means? I have no idea.
But I am excited for what's to come! (and nervous)
I was now already two times in the boys bathroom and I joke-said to my dad: "Well I could have gone to the boys bathroom" and his reply was:
"Yeah, sure as if it isn't enough you wear this. That joke isn't funny, [my girls name]!"
I admit, I was wincing on the inside at those words.
But now a list of things of myself that bother me:
-my voice (way too high)
-my chest (thanks to sports-BH and binder it is bearable)
-butt and hips (too feminim!)
Okay, I realise, it is basically all my feminine features -_-
Ugh, my hands are shaking way too strong...
I want to scream
I AM A BOY
YOU ARE READING
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AcakLiving has always been exciting where after every up came a down and up again, like a roller coaster, isn't it? But it becomes an even bigger roller coaster with loopings added, when you start asking yourself what is your gender? What is your sexual...
