Shy

Ch. 9

I grab my bag out of my car and head to the library before it gets too crowded. I get there just in time and take a seat at an empty table and pull out my journal. I open it up to a blank page and grab a pen out of my bag. I grip onto the pen and look down at the blank page and start writing.

Life. Life is crazy and I always liked to think of it as a rollercoaster. Sometimes it goes up and life's great, but then you have times where you're down.
I won't lie and say I haven't had a tough life because I have. I had to learn to love myself and be there for myself when no one else was. There was times where I had to put myself back together after I got hurt. I've been told I was a disappointment and I was bullied most of my life. I had to deal with suicidal thoughts and many other things, but I made it through. Life is hard and it will always be, but the things that happen to you make you who you are and who you will be. I use to hate myself because I thought I was to sensitive and because I thought I wasn't good enough, but I was. I felt invisible for several years, but what I learned was that I wasn't. I went through so much on my own because I thought I had too, but I didn't. I've had people try to put me down, but I wouldn't let them. Life has always been hard for me and I went through so much pain. I would think at night "I'm so alone" but I wasn't because there was people out there that felt exactly like I did. We might feel alone some days, but I don't think we're ever truly alone in this world. When your in a dark place like I was it's hard to see that things will get better, but they will. I would like to say that I'm a strong person because I think I am. After everything that has happened to me I'm glad I'm still here and that I made it this far. Now I'm about to leave for college and I can't help but smile and think about all of the adventures that await me. I can't wait to do the things I want to do and help people. I'm going for my dream and shooting for the stars and I have hope that I will achieve my dream. Life is hard ,but when you look around it's actually quite beautiful. I'm truly happy now and if I could tell my 13 year old self anything it would be to stay strong and hold onto that hope and dream. Now I'm where I want to be and I will make it to South Korea to help people there that have felt the way I have felt. It's not just them though. I hope to help people from all around the world because I have big dreams. So, shoot for the stars and go for your dreams no matter what people say. This is your life and you only get one, so do what you want and be who you want to be. Don't let the people and society tell you different. Don't let them hurt you, because there expectations will. This life is yours.
- Amber

P.s - I hope my journal entries have helped someone or just opened your eyes a little more. (When you are done put it on a book shelf for someone else.)

I closed my journal one last time and placed it on a book shelf for someone to find. I grabbed my things and walked to my dorm room and smiled. This is my next adventure and I'll take it head on.