John Laurens x Alexander Hamilton

Im So Sorry..

Alexander Hamilton's POV
Hercules and Lafayette burst in the door and cry tears of joy as they hug me gently. The trio stands above me beside the bed exclaiming how happy they are that I'm alright. Lafayette was the first to start the lecture.
"Alexander Hamilton. How dare you do something as stupid as that!! We were all worried sick!! John didn't even go to school today! He stayed up all night watching over you!!"
I wince, that hurt. But I was the idiot who did this to myself. I nod sheepishly as I deserve this.
"Laf you sh-" John says quietly but he's cut off by more yelling.
"John was absolutely devastated!! He was the first one there and last one to leave the side of the crash!! Not to mention we couldn't even get him to talk!!"
"Laf stop your hurti-"
"If you just listened and stayed at my house we all wouldn't be here and John wouldn't be upset!!" He breathes heavily.
I nod and sit up more. I quickly scan for a bathroom and look down at my arm. I quickly pull out the needle and they all start to freak out and try to push me down but I only continue and walk to the bathroom. Once they understand my destination they calm down. Placing my hand on the handle I say softly facing the three.
"I'm sorry for being such am idiot. I'm also sorry for Brothering all of you, from my stupid antics and my self destructive tendencies I'm sorry. Once I leave the hospital I'll try my damnedest to stay out of your guys ways and worries." I smile and that's when I feel tears fall down my face. I open the door and enter the bathroom to do my business and stand over the sink staring at myself yelling st myself internally to stop crying but I only cry harder. I hear a soft knock on the door and a soft voice.
"Alex.. We talked to the doctor and they said it was alright to let you go, they have some pain meds for you as you hit your head pretty hard and your small wounds will make you pretty sore tomorrow..." Says John softly. I whipe my tears and try my hardest to answer normally.
"Okay.. T-thank you.." I croak and my voice cracks.
"Alex is the door open?" Asks John.
"Yes.. Wh-" John cuts me off and opens the door quickly opening it. He quickly hugs me and I burst into tears. I hug back and cry into his shoulder. Tears cascade out of my eyes as Lafayette's words Pierce through me, I hurt John.. Not only do I cry for my ignorance  I cry for all the times I bothered or burdened the lot of them.
"Alex.. Its okay.. Don't take what Laf said to heart. He just worries, we were all worried sick. Its okay, you were drunk. We all do stupid things when were drunk." John says softly into my ear. It only makes me sob harder and my knees start to collapse, John starts to guide me to the ground and he holds Me as I sob helplessly into his chest. I've never cried this hard, I know my tendency to bottle things up is frequent but I didn't know it would end up like this, on the floor, being held by my boyfriend in a hospital. The only other time I've cried is when my mother died, even then I pushed it down so I can focus and survive. As I sob I don't notice as the door softly opens and Lafayette and Hercules enter. John looks over and mouths.
"Go away." They nod and close the door softly.
  After awhile I calm down and John pushes the stray hair off of my damp face.
"I've never seen someone cry so hard.. Alex you were holding in a lot of shit weren't you..?" Asks John with a concerned expression. I nod and he frowns. He guides me and helps me stand up. I wash my face as he softly rubs my back.
"I'll be right back alright?" I nod and he leaves. As I control my breathing I hear hushed voices.
"Did I really do that..?" Asks a cracked voice.
"Laf.. Shh.. It's okay you didn't do all of that. He was holding a lot in." Says a soft calm voice.
"God.. That's actually Scary.."
"You're telling me.."
I walk out and Lafayette quickly jumps up and hugs me tightly. Okay were hugging? I don't think I've ever Hugged him.
"I'm so sorry Alex... I-it's just- I-"
I pull back and look at my friend. I smile.
"No, its all true. I am an idiot. And don't worry about me, I deserved it." I say in the most kind way possible as I fully believe it. Lafayette frowns and opens his mouth to say something but I cut him off.
  "Now, come on. Let's get out of this hospital. It smells like old people and rubbing alcohol." I say grabbing the bag of medication and smiling at my friends. They all look like I have three head but I motion for the door. They all nod and in their confusion make their way through the door and to the car. Once we make it to the car I sit in the back. They all pile in the car, John sitting next to me. After a couple minutes of awkward silence they strike up a conversation as I stare blankly out the window thinking of ways of how to not burden them as much as I have.

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This chapter is sad I'm sorry ;-; but I hope you like it!!

~Viktor