Ethan wasn't at school today. I texted him multiple times last night and this morning and I didn't get a single text back... but it did show that he read them. I feel horrible. I should've listened to Emma and stayed out of it. Now he hates me.
Unlike Ethan, Grayson did show up. He told me Ethan didn't even come home last night. I honestly hate myself. Grayson said he got home this morning. He didn't even want to speak. He just locked himself in his room and refused to come out.
I'm so dead.
Grayson had lacrosse practice but he gave me his house key. He knew Ethan wouldn't open the door for me if I decided to show up. He told me his uncle worked all day so it would just be us. I can't lie, I'm scared shitless but I knew he wouldn't hurt me. I pulled up in his driveway and took my time to walk up the stairs. I didn't want any distractions so I left my phone in my car.
C'mon Valentina. You have no problems standing up to anyone else. Just breath and say what you have to say and hear him out. Apologize. You were in the wrong not him.
But he's not just anyone else. He's Ethan.
As much as I hate to admit to myself I actually care about what he thinks of me. His opinion mattered so much to me and now it's killing me.
I opened the door and walked in. The living room as well as the kitchen was empty. He had to be in his bedroom. I walked down the hallway and stood in front of his door. I knocked and he told me to go away. I don't think he knows it's me but damn he'll be angrier than ever when he finds out. I got over myself and opened the door. I mean he already hates me.
"Valentina what are you doing here?" He let out a deep breath and avoided eye contact. He took a drink from his beer and continued to ignore me. There was a twelve pack on his night stand and random bottles scattered on the ground.
"I came to talk... and apologize for following you and not trusting you..." I played with my fingers and waited for him to say something, ignoring the fact that he had been drinking all day. He looked at me and then went back to his phone.
"Look break up with me, I don't care do what you have to do! Just stop giving the damn silent treatment. I'm so sorry okay! I have a problem with people lying to me so when you and Grayson did I just lost it. Yes I should've trusted you and left it alone but really Ethan! You were gonna hide this big ass secret from me? Your girlfriend! What if something horrible happened to you! What would I do then huh!"
So much for keeping it cool.
"I didn't tell you because I don't want you getting involved in the stupid shit that I do! If I don't tell you something it's for a damn reason! You should've respected my choice." He let out a deep breath and walked away from me.
"Ethan I'm sor.."
"Just shut the hell up okay!" He yelled and walked over to me. Not gonna lie. I'm terrified and I just want to cry.
"Do you know the shit that went through my head when I saw that guy on you. The shit that could've happened if I didn't see you the moment that I did. He could've fucking taken you away from me and do God knows what."
I stayed quiet and walked over to his bed. He walked back and forth, running his fingers through his hair and finally sat down. He grabbed the bottle from his night stand and took another drink.
"Ethan stop with the fucking beer!" I yelled. I walked to him and took the bottle from his hands and placed it back on the counter. If I didn't know better I would say he was on the verge to crying.
