My thoughts....

Am I the only person...

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I wonder if I'm the only person that feels alone even when there's people around me... but lately I've found OUT that I'm NOT the only one.. AND that it's actually normal to feel like that sometimes.  How??? For starters.. there's a point in life where everyone you thought had your back will eventually turn on you. AND the sad part in that is the moment you NEED them the MOST they are No where to be found. 

Another is.. you may be in a room FULL of people.. yet you still feel like you the ONLY person there. AND I've come to conclusion that it's Okay.. why?? because let's be honest when you die...you are the ONLY one That's going to be in the casket! I know it's being harsh.. but how I grew up was to either get hurt by ONE truth then to get stab by a dozens of lies!

Am I the only one.... that do stupid crap to the person that you LOVE!?..

This week had me down... first this guy that I have been dating for 4 years on AND off , we had an argument to the point that I personally pushed him away. now some may be thinking that I'm stupid AND crazy but let ME face it. I'm a female that has trust,anger,AND commitment issues! SO to say the least.. I've ALWAYS accuse him of cheating on me.. even when he's not. yet he stilled stayed AND calm me down so he CAN prove to me that he's NOT cheating. But can you blame a person that was growing up in an environment where their parents were married for 14-15 years but yet her Dad cheats on her mom ???

Next was my commitment issues.. NOW this is something I can't really explain. How?? even when I'm dating a person I ALWAYS break up with them because:

a) I ALWAYS think that they'll end up leaving when I start to feel deep feelings for them.

b) In the back of my mind I'll find an excuse to treat the person I'm dating bad AND accuse him of something.

c) I'll ALWAYS have flashback of What my mom went thru...

So to say the least I AM a person with a lot of issues.. but What can I do.?

Job 37:15 NLT

'Do you know how God controls the storm and causes the lightning to flash from his clouds?"

-Job 37:15

SO HERE'S ANOTHER CHAPTER!

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