Speak the Truth, Even If Your Voice Shakes

Part three:

First block was a pitiful attempt to try to convince everyone that I had slept last night. My eyes had bags and I nodded off every few moments, only to be awoken by the dull aching in my leg. The night before had been nothing but a failed attempt to fully stay asleep without hurting my leg or bleeding all over the bed. I turned toward my friend Braden and He helped make me smile on a morning like this. As Adam's one close friend for a long time, he and I had grown closer with time. His jokes were often out of line and he was often in need of medicine, adderal would have done him good, but nevertheless, his silly outlook on life made me smile each time.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw him as he took a glimpse at my shoulder blades and he sat in silence, pondering what could have happened. Mentally he was trying to come up with any other resolution other than the completely obvious. I slipped my sleeve over it best I could but the damage was done. He looked at me with the saddest eyes he could muster and asked me why.

"It's how I cope."

He never said another word.

The awkward tension was broken by the sound of the bell. We gathered are books and made our way to the free time we spent around this time every day. Our split groups sat down, I alone with Adam as my sole partner. There were four of us to begin with. We were closer than close. Nobody could come between us, Except ourselves. Alli and Kaitlin began to have tension and in the end, we all grew apart. What a shame it ended like this. I sat watching all of them, wondering and pondering them. They were all beautiful in their own way. Alli had light brown hair, a small figure and always wore her favorite holey jeans and some band or gaming shirt I never knew the name of. Kaitlin had thick blonde hair, always wavy and pinned back with long skinny legs and pale skin, cute clothes and had the potential to be interview of the high schools popular people, but her sisters reputation of drugs brought her down. Elizabeth was tall with black hair, thicker built, always had on comfy clothes with sandals, and the kind of humor that always made you smile. And here I sat, watching Elizabeth and Kaitlin ostracize my best friend. I never wanted this to happen, I distanced myself from the situation and reminded that this is not my battle to fight.

I felt eyes on me and I met his. We both almost instantaneously looked away, but the moment was there. Bore into my soul. Adam looked at me with pleading eyes, so the mask was applied, a veil of empty to mask the fact that I was in fact in love with someone else.

The bell rung, and I took in a sharp intake of air. Our eye crossed once again as we went on our different ways. Maneuvering through the hallways was almost impossible, my mind clouded by him. I sat down in the old prom closet to hide from my teacher. I began to think about him, the nagging voice reminding me he existed. I blocked it out. But they began to cloud my thoughts until I was no longer responsive to them.

He sat next to me and payed me no attention, his face showing him deep in thought, my hand laying peacefully flat in my lap hoping for him to grab it.

Minutes went by and there was still nothing, I anxiously waited to see if he would take my hand, and as the time kept going, I never thought he would.

I saw something move in the bottom of my vision and there I saw his hand flat against the pew, fingers stretched upward in hope I would take his hand. I slowly interlocked my fingers into his, feeling my stomach flutter ever so softly, and as his thumb reached to touch my bare leg, it dropped hard. My cheeks blushed and out of the corner of my eye I could see him smiling, laughing at me."

And it was all at once gone, I gasped for air, not being able to fill my lungs. I collapsed in a heap crying as I heard the faint sound of a voice reminding me of my fate.

13 more days.

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Well I decided I'd take up finishing this a little bit more. I got a job so I haven't really thought about updating in quite a while. but I'm back.

I'm thinking about introducing a new character in the next few chapters, a different guy. Not sure yet, maybe not maybe so.

I haven't really planned for this book to really do anything, just to write for fun. I can't wait til I can finish it and look back on it. Hope yal like it!

-Hollie Sunshine