How Do I Breathe Like This?

Idk

I'm going to tell her at lunch hopeful she doesn't judge I don't want to find a new group again

I feel like the other half if me is out there somewhere he/she might feel like I do right now lost in pain hurt unwanted and ready to give up truth is I just wish I could give up just like they said I would

I have a big crush talking about it makes me blush but enough is enough I'm tried of living this bluff I want to end this friendship between us two and start something new