How Do I Breathe Like This?

Eyes

As I close my eyes

My mind goes crazy

My heart pounds faster

I take a breath

I can't feel or hear anything

As I open my eyes

All I see is an blurr

I can make out

Someone standing

Over me

I try to say

Help

But nothing comes out

The person

Pulls out something

As I make out lights

Coming closer

I black out

As I come back

To earth

I hear beeping

I slowly open

My eyes

I hear a beeping

I look over

"Damn it"

I yell

It didn't work

My life is still

Going on

It shouldn't be

But it is

I need to die

I can't walk this earth

I need to be

In the earth

Now

Joined as one

Weeks later

I'm out

I'm "fine"

Or so the doc

Thinks

I hear a car coming

I jump out in front of it

Last thing

I hear is a beep

I see is a light

I finally did it