Sweetest goodbye

-7-

I got up from my bed and headed to the kitchen making myself breakfast. "Jimin, have some toast that I made" Jin said while smiling.

If only I could smile back but I just simply gave him a nod. I sat down while eating. I was hungry but I just couldn't eat.

"Jimin, you have to eat. Please eat something. I don't want you to hurt yourself again"

My head shot up. "Hyung, did you hear anything?" I asked jin.

"No? Why?" He asked looking back from the pan.

"Oh. Nothing" I swear. I heard her voice. It's her but how? I guess it's just my imagination. I ruffled my hair in frustration.

"Oh, it's jimin!" Jungkook came and hugged me. I returned a weak smile. "So, he finally came out of his cage" namjoon exclaimed while laughing.

"What made you come out eh?" Suga asked sleepily. "Was hungry and I smelled something nice"

"The food is ready!" Jin shouted. "What did you cook jin?" V asked. "American breakfast!" And we all started eating.

"That was nice but I missed jennie's cooking" V said while pouring. "V, you shouldn't-" Suga said but I cut him off.

"I know right? I missed her cooking. I miss her presence. I miss her. I miss her laughter. I miss waking up to her laughing and giggling about how I was too lazy to wake up. Don't you miss it? I can't believe on how much of an idiot I was to not spend the her last week together. I was too busy chasing my dreams that I lost my lucky star. I didn't know that she felt this way. I didn't know that she was hurting" I sighed

"What way jimin?" Jhope asked curiously.

"She felt... neglected, ignored, invisible" a single tear fell as I remembered what she wrote on the letter.

To Park Jimin,
Hello my lovely sunflower. If you're reading this I must've been gone then. Jimin-ah, whatever happens don't blame yourself okay? It wasn't your fault. Now, you're most probably wondering how it all happened aren't you?

It all started when I started coughing blood. I got an appointment with my doctor. I was then diagnosed with a sickness which can't be cured and I had one to three months left. Remember when I asked you to stay over for the week? I had exactly a week left but you were busy.

I didn't want to be clingy so I let you go. I know how much this meant to you so I didn't want to be in the way. To be very honest, I felt lonely and neglected. I really wanted to tell you about my sickness but I just couldn't. Then, we had that fight. It made me feel like I was in the way of you achieving your dreams. Mianhae.

Two days after that fight, I fell ill to the point where I couldn't move. So I was sent to the hospital. Mom wanted to inform you but after what happened, I didn't want to. I know it's my fault for not telling you but jimin, my passing is never your fault. It never was and it will never be.

I love you jimin and I would never hurt you but I guess I'm being selfish here. I didn't know that I'd be in so much pain. Jimin-ah, I love you. Mianhae.

Whatever happens, I want you to be the bubbly person that you've always been. Never stop smiling.

Wake up with a smile on your face, I love you Park jimin.

- Yours truly, Jennie.

The paper smelled like her perfume. Victoria secrets bombshell. It was her favorite.

There were small doodles around the letter. Something she always loved. Doodling. I quote "doodling is something so light yet so strong and beautiful. Like my love for you"

Jennie, you pabo. How could you leave me like this?

"Jimin?" Jhope asked which caught me off guard.

"Are you okay?" They all asked worriedly.

"I'm fine. I just remembered something" I smiled.

"We're heading to the studio today. Are you tagging along?" Suga asked. I nodded. I needed a little break from my bedroom which only reminds me of her. I need to get my mind off her.

|| At the studio ||

I went to the piano and started playing some tunes. Lyrics started to come out of my mouth.

When I woke up, 6pm
Sleeping in your bed again
Your ghost keeps me lonely
All the while, I'm burning for you
For you, oh
And this could be just what you need
Just dim the lights, cut your ties
Break down this line, the mood is right
You burn inside of me
You're burnin' inside of me
You burn

I softly sighed. "Jimin, that was great. Please continue" Suga looked at me with wide eyes.

"I can't. That's all I have." I looked at them.

"It's okay. If you don't mind, please continue it. We could record it if you want" Suga then said. I just nodded.

The session continued with laughter and jokes. Me being the moody self, I kept quiet.

"Jimin-ah. Laugh along. Where is that smile that I know? That laughter? Come on"

It's that voice again.

"Jennie, is that you?" I whispered. I didn't hear the voice again. I give up dammit. Jennie, promise me that we'll reunite once again?

"We will but for now, please have fun with your friends. Achieve your dreams and come back to me once you've achieved it."

That's it. I'm visiting her.