Meant to be Yours

Audition

I wake up several times, trying not to scream. On the third time I looked tiredly at my phone, I groaned, it was 7:14 AM. My alarm is set to go off in ten minutes. I manually turn it off and lied on my back for a moment. I could hear my dad loud snorting through the wall.

The details of the dreams were fading fast, the fear still had a struggling grip on me. The last one had to do with me being sacrificed to some god. I got myself calmed, then get up to take a shower. The hot water washed away the lingering effects of the dreams.

In a low voice, as to not wake up my parents I sang, "I was meant to be yours, we were meant to be one." I stopped suddenly, "Nickolaus." I whispered, "we are meant to be one." I smiled at that.

The fear was lessening. I normally have no fear of stuff, however, when it threatens to bring big changes. Like one that could possibly land me homeless, I needed to wait till I knew that it would last. The love I have for Nickolaus was true and I wanted to display it.

As I dressed, I listened closely to make sure that my parents were still asleep. I told them that I was going for an audition, but not the name nor type of play. Reason being was they did not approve of it, through the message of Heathers was of good intent.

My mom had gone shopping and got me a suit for the audition. That was not the look of JD. In the play he dawns a trench coat, I did not have one at the present time. So I dressed in black, with hair in front of my eyes and fingerless gloves.

Looking at myself in the mirror, my heart lurched in my chest. I knew that I had the persona down, I just had to nail the acting and singing. After which, if it goes the way I hope, great change will come.

"We're the asteroid that overdue." I sang to the mirror, my head low and looking through my hair.

I crept out of the bathroom and crossed the hall to my bedroom. Pocketing my phone and throwing on my backpack and left the house.

The audition was at the Hall of Acting near the heart of the city. It was 8:30 and my audition was at 10:00. I ran to the bus stop and barely caught it. The bus was full of men and women in business suits and toting briefcases. When I entered the bus, I received unsettled glances. I have never ridden this bus and how I was dressed and the way carried myself giving off the vibes of a bad boy. I easily moved to the back of the bus, there was an older man sitting on the bench seat in the back. When I sat on the opposite side, he cast me a look and quickly stood up.

This was definitely a learning experience for me. People truly did judge by general appearance and it did hurt, Yes, be wary. For I am Anxiety. I thought and softly chuckled. I fell back to the thought of how one might miss a potential friend or lover. Perhaps, I could play that into JD. If I get the part that is.

I gaze out the window, running through the play in my mind. I saw the first drop of rain hit the window. By the time I disembarked, it was raining heavily. I had to run a block from the bus stop to the Hall of Acting.

Once inside, I gave my clothes a brief shake and then moved my wet hair from my face. Well, there goes my look. I grumbled in my mind.

Looking up I stopped in my tracks cause my shoes to squeak loudly on the polished floor. The number of people that were waiting to audition was crazy. I moved to the wall and perched there, waiting.

"Hey! Hey!" I heard someone call out.

I was looking down at my reflection in the floor when a brown loafer was suddenly on my reflection's head. I looked up and was looking to the face of a man.

"Sign in, you here to audition?"

"Yes, JD."

The man nodded and led to the head of the room, where a table was set up. I didn't walk with my head held high, my anxiousness was setting in.

"Name and requested part."The man said moving around the table.

Taking up the pen, Anxiety 'Jericho' Dark- Jason 'JD' Dean. I slid the paper back to him and turned to walk back to my spot.

"Whoa, sir. Come here, I think you got something wrong." The man said, with the understanding that I wrote down anxiety because I am anxious.

I turned with a smile, "No, my first name is Anxiety but I prefer to go by my middle name Jericho."

"Do you embody anxiety?"A voice piped up.

I pin-pointed where the voice was coming from, a woman was staring at me with a grin.

"No, I am more like Princy," I said, referring to Sanders Sides.

Some others in earshot laughed, as I deduced that they also must watch Thomas. I had indeed spoken smooth and steady but my knees were shaking madly. I went back to my spot before I gave myself away.

Back against the wall, I plucked my phone from my pocket. I had two messages, my ringtone was off for the consideration of the auditions.

My mom texted me at 9:20 and Nickolaus texted me just moments ago. I decided to wait to look at the one from my mom after my audition.

Hey, babe. How did the audition go?

"Anxiety Dark!" The man at the sign-in table called, "they are ready for you."

Why do I even bother? I thought as I moved back down the aisle formed by people waiting for their chance to audition. I heard people snickering and some actually repeat my name in question.

The man at the table gestured to the double doors behind him, "Just in their." He smiled warmly.

"Thank you," I said, pausing at the door I composed myself and got into character.

Entering the auditorium, for a brief moment, the grandeur of the auditorium rocked my excitement.

"Mr. Anxiety Dark?" One of the five people who was looking over the auditions called from the second row.

"Jericho," I said, moving past the rows and rows of seats to the stage.

"Jericho, okay then. You are auditioning for the part of J.D.?"

"Yes," I said, gaining center stage.

"Alright, here is a script."

A tall woman was about to grab a script from the table.

"No need, I have the play memorized," I said in a cold voice.

The panel exchanged looks, "Okay, great. This is Mary and she will be playing Veronica for this scene."

A shorter woman with long dark hair made her way upstage with me. We shook hands then I looked forward waiting for directions.

"You are to do Meant to be Yours. And it is on your cure, Jericho."

Mary moved to stage left and hunkered low. I hurried off stage right, to enter in through the window.

"Knock knock..." I started the dialog. My voice was cracking and my movements were stiff and roboty. I was hanging myself, I was dreading the singing if they didn't stop me first. Trying to calm my mind to get into the act hoping to save the audition.

In the three beat count before I went into the song. I heard a phone ring, I used that anger of being interrupted to calm and propel me into the song. My voice strong and mean, I saw Mary jump. Which indeed drove me on. When reaching the chorus, I was completely lost in the character. I had tears in my eyes where they were needed, then I retreated out the window.

I heard something that I didn't expect, applause. I appeared back on stage to receive it, I was slightly shaking but it was due to the fact, after getting going, I did it full out.

"Jericho, that was great. A little touchy in the beginning, but you have it." She looked at the others, then she looked at me and smiled, "My name is Vex, I'm the director and I want to say that you are the first to be cast. What do you say, JD?"

Beaming, "I'd be honored to play your bad boy."

"Great come back tomorrow."

I nodded and then ran from the auditorium.