"What the hell are you doing, Simon?"
He hadn't even seen Josh coming. He wasn't expecting him either, he's on the most unappealing pub he could find.
"What am I doing of what?"
"You know"
"No, I don't"
"For fucks sake!"
Josh ends up sitting beside him, but he doesn't even look at him. He just takes another sip of the glass of whisky he's holding. Forth, maybe fifth one of the night. He looks pale, paler than usual, and the bags under his eyes are the clear sign that something is not going great. He looks tired as fuck and he literally feels as he hasn't slept in ages.
"So this is all you gonna do? Get drunk on a crappy pub?"
"Shut the fuck up, Josh"
"Why should I? You're acting as a piece of shit"
"Fuck off"
Josh laughs ironically.
"What is it, uh? You don't like to hear the truth?"
"Shut up, Josh"
"No, Simon, I'm not going to shut up. You're acting as a selfish, coward child. I can't believe you're blaming her for this!"
"I'm not blaming her for anything!"
"Oh, really? The why did you screamed at her and then left her alone? Such a good move on your side!"
"I don't know, okay?!" At this point Simon is screaming, and they are raising the attention of everybody around "I was scared and fuck, it's not easy! You don't know how it feels!"
"You were scared? You? Have you even stopped to think about how she must be feeling for a second? Have you ever looked more than an inch around you, Simon? This is not about you at all. I get you're upset, and you have the right to be, but think about Y/N. Just think how she's feeling right now. I bet she was already blaming herself before she told you, and then you run away of her. I'd never seen her like this before, not even near. She's broken, Simon. She's broken and you know it. I though you cared about her much more than this"
Simon falls silent suddenly. The realization of the truth in Josh's words hits him hard. He cares about Y/N, he really does, but hearing she has lost their unborn child... It hurt.
They never planned it, having that baby, it was more of a mistake than anything else, but they went along with it because why not? They were young and happy, and they were in love. What else could they ask for?
They were happy days, sharing the news with their families and friends, thinking about names in case it was a boy and reluctantly doing the same in case it was a girl. He daydreamed so much about him teaching his child how to play football, being one of those vlogger families, happy and in love with his girlfriend and their child.
But then... as soon as it came it faded away.
It is not her fault, he knows it isn't, but the moment she told him about it, he just couldn't deal with it. But Josh is right and he has failed Y/N. She must be feeling awful right now, and he's not even there to make it lighter. A new pain in his heart comes with that thought, leaving their home for two whole days may have been too much.
"What can I do now?"
He's not screaming anymore, in fact, he's whispering.
"Go home. Apologize. You're lucky that girl loves you"
"What if she doesn't forgive me?"
"Trust me, she will"
By: padds3 on tumblr
