"i can't decide if it's a choice
getting swept away"
"luke i need to talk to you" andrea burst through the door as he lay on the couch with a beer in hand, laughing at a joke the other guys had made before she walked in
he turned his head to see her standing at the door and his smile dropped and fear hit his blue eyes when he saw her hair a mess and makeup down her cheeks, cigarette dangling from her fingers and her shirt hanging off her back
"what's wrong babe?" he quickly shot up and walked across, putting his arm on her back and pulling her close.
she pulled away as if it physically hurt to be close to him, putting her hands over her face and turning her head, before dragging him to the kitchen.
the other guys hooted and cheered, oblivious to the fact of how torn apart andrea was inside and how anxious luke was beginning to feel
as she swiftly walked into the kitchen, wiping the tears from under her eyes with the long sleeve of luke's plaid shirt she grabbed from her apartment where he left it
"i can't do this anymore. i can't decide if its a choice i have to make or its just going to happen, but i'm in love with you. and i'm in love with jordan. i want one of you and i don't know which one i need, so if you're okay with it i'm not ready to take this further. i want to stay where we are with what we have. its skinny love and its beautiful, as beautiful as when the sun hits your skin when you lay your head against the car window or when your eyelashes touch your cheek when you wake up. i'm in love with you luke and i'm not ready to-"
"andrea?"
"yes?"
"lastnight. i was thinking. you've always wanted to get out of this shitty small-minded town, away from your parents and everything, yeah?"
"...yeah?"
"i got you a ticket. a ticket and an apartment in los angeles, near sunset blvd. i mean i've been there and that place is where you belong, i can feel it. the music stores and the place never sleeps. the new people to meet and the places to explore. you need to go andrea, leave me and this other guy behind. leave everything behind and forget. start new. please."
"luke i'm not moving to fucking los angeles. i have no money, no car, no anything. well maybe i do. i have you. and i'm getting swept away here when i'm meant to be leaving. i need to stay and sort this out. it's not fair on anyone and i'm not being that selfish."
"you're going to regret it and usually i would force you, but im too head over heels in love with you. i am infatuated by every little detail; how you speak or how you fall asleep with your hand on my chest and i can feel your breath on my neck. and andrea, im in love with you. and i want to be with you. i'm telling you now, i'm going to break your heart so go now. please."
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