Instinctive Thoughts

The Unexistence of Existential Pain

Is it me the one who chose to be me ?
Was i forced or this is how i'm meant to be ?
Powers Drain Powers to become more powerful
Shall i drain Your Instincts to become Fully Soulful
I and myself met in an undefined universe
So did my soul that unknown Darkness that hurts
I've slit the crib cages of my mind
I've let all the Breath go out from behind
Enough thoughts why would i think about temperor options ?
Enough shots why would i drink to fill my passions ?
Enough being deceived by more cunning shrewdness
Shattered debris upon my throat it's suffocating emotions
I've self-sabotaged my incoming complementing compliments
I've self neglected The I and the eye
So the Hands were raised and they were meant to be high
My hands were the thoughts that went Insanely deft
My Brain was the Tool To pay check my debts
I've encountered My demons and asked them to place their bets
So i've placed it and my bets and was expecting the best
I attained my Expectations and obtained all the rest
I never take rests i only Fake fists
To open up the closure and make it an ecstatic fest
I've walked into my mind i've Destroyed all the aisles
To wake up in the streets the only thing that can feebles
Shall i Bring up the oars to surf into the sea ?
Shall i break all the ores to prove you i'm no longer weak ?
Just subside and give up i don't want you to be awed
Must confess i'm Consciously blind i'm still living but i'm cold
Paradoxal actions taken by misconceptions
Immortal corpses are taking over my portions
My fellows are Bounded by a bondage and i've Only got some scarces
Let me watch you Take my Pain yes i'm a Sadomasochist
I Abjured and abnegate i'm a whole form of aberrate
I've abstrused all the obstacles eventhough it's hard to penetrate
Shapeless and formless i'm a new form of amorphous
I Embraced the anachronism i'm chronologically misplaced
I assigned a meaning to myself i'm a self construe
Is that really the case or is that not true ?
Skeptic of my nihilism i must consider Healing my contusions
A harmless pain what a contradictive illusion
I'm easily Flammable i became a conflagration
I'm empirically non existent but Delusively yes i am
Come Abduct my braincells let me watch you if you can
I need an immediate attention let me make me exigent
I made myself a purpose let's all become expedient