Innocence Lost

What Now?

I woke up the next morning to James wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me closer. I thought this was all a dream, but it wasn't. I was sleeping next to my life long crush. I nuzzled my head under his chin and just listened to the beautiful sound of his breathing. 

"Good morning handsome," I said when he rolled over and moaned.

"What time is it?" he asked, confused.

I chuckled, "It's only four in the morning."

"What are you doing awake?" he asked even more confused.

I sighed, "I just woke up! I'm not sure." 

"Well go back to sleep baby." he pleaded with a raspy voice.

I rolled over and placed my head on his chest and flipped on leg over him, my hand roaming his chest. Before I new it, I was fast asleep. The next thing I knew, the sun was glaring through the window, forcing me to wake up once again, only this time, James wasn't there. I panicked as I looked around the room and realized I was in his guest house still. 

The door opened and James walked in with some gray sweats and no shirt. He was carrying a tray with eggs, bacon, hash browns, toast, ketchup, hot sauce and juice.

"Oh my!" I exclaimed.

"A breakfast for a queen." He graciously put the try down on the bed.

I stared at this tray and wondered what I possibly did to deserve this. He took a plate and put some food on there and handed it to me. "Eat up!"

I dug in because I was starving and let me tell you, it was delicious. He grabbed himself a plate and we ate in silence as we indulged in the feast that was in front of us. 

"So, James, we need to talk..." I finally spoke.

"About what darling?" He looked at me.

"About us. What are we? What is this?" I asked.

He chuckled, "I don't know what this is," he replied putting his food down, "but I know what I want it to be." he put my plate down.

"And.. and what do you want it to.. to,,, to,,, be? I stuttered as he cupped my face and moved closer.

"I," he leaned his forehead against mine. 

"want," I looked down.

"you" he said, placing a lustful kiss on my lips.

I pulled away. "But, do you want me for your pleasure, or do you want more? Do you want me? Do you want us?" I asked searching his face.

He pulled me back into his arms and lifted my chin to make me look at him, "I want everything. I want you for my pleasure, I want you for your looks, but more importantly, I want you for you. I want us. I want us to be together Piper. I have wanted this my whole life, I just never had the guts to. The only reason I did the other night was because I was drunk and it gave me the courage to even talk to you." He kissed my forehead, "Piper, I want you and only you. I need to know what you want."

I sighed nervously as tears came to my eyes, "James, please don't mess with me like this."

"I'm not, gorgeous."

"How do I know that? I mean, look at you and look at me. Why would someone like you want me when you could have anybody you wanted."

"Because, Piper, like you said.. look at you. You are the whole package. You are breathtakingly beautiful, incredibly intelligent, funny, honest, kind, loving.. you make a room light up when you walk in to it. You are so out of my league, that's why it took me so long to talk to you. Please, will you be my girlfriend?"