Innocence Lost

Afraid

As the sun came in through the window, I could smell bacon being cooked. I tried to move but felt two arms pull me back in. I turned around to see that James was still asleep. He was beautiful. The way the sun kissed his skin and the way his lips were parted slightly made me want to marry him. His hair was slightly messed up and there was a little glisten of sweat on his forehead. He truly looked like and angel. I lied back down next to him and put his head on my chest. I slowly caressed his back with my fingernails thinking back to my nightmare. Lost in thought, he woke up and I was brought back to earth with the sound of his voice. 

"Good morning gorgeous."

I looked down at him and kissed his forehead smiling, "Good morning handsome."

He rolled over and wiped his forehead. His eyes were puffy from crying and his body was tired from all of the adrenaline. 

"Stay here, I'm going to go check on breakfast," I told him.

As I walked down to the kitchen, I passed by a window in the hall and I could have sworn I saw a person. As I double checked, that person was gone. Weird, I thought, I could've sworn there was someone there. 

I continued into the kitchen to see my mom and dad cooking together. They cooked most meals together, which made me happy. 

"Hey!" I shouted.

They jumped in surprise and turned around asking me how James was. I told them that he is okay and that we just woke up. As they were cooking, they made two plates, one for me and one for him. I put our plates on the tray, along with two glasses of milk and went back to my room. Once I was there, I walked in on James stretching. This man looked like a god. His arms were stretched to the ceiling and the muscles in his back were flexed. I gasped slightly which made him turn around. When he saw me, he rushed over to me.

"Here, let me get that." he said.

He took the tray from me and set it down on the ground. He grabbed some pillows from the bed and gave one to me. We sat on the ground and began eating breakfast. I grabbed my laptop and put on a movie. During the middle of the movie, I thought I saw the same person walk past my window. I jumped which made James worried.

"Hey babe, is everything okay?" he asked.

"uhhh... yeah... well no... I think I am going crazy." I replied.

"Why's that?"

"Well, I keep thinking I see a person outside of the window. The first time was when I was walking to the kitchen, and the second time was just now."

"Well that's weird babe. Is there anybody that you could think of that would be following you?" he asked.

"I don't think so," I replied. 

I curled up next to him after we finished eating to continue watching the movie, though the feeling of someone watching us was bigger than ever. 

As the movie came to an end, James turned my head to look at him. "Last night, you had a nightmare right?"

"yes."

"Tell me about it."

As I told him about my nightmare, he seemed hurt. His eyebrows were wrinkled and there were tears in his eyes.

"Piper, I would never in my life do that or anything like that to you."

"I know James, it's just... well never mind, it was just a nightmare."

"It's just what?"

"Oh, nothing." I said breaking eye contact.

"Tell me. We are in a relationship and I would like to know what you're thinking. I would never do that to you."

I sighed, "I know James. There's just something that's happened in my past that I don't want to talk about."

He took my hands and put his forehead on mine, "Piper, I am not going anywhere. I am here not only as your boyfriend, best friend, or lover, I am here as someone you can confide in. I am here to support you, protect you, love you. I am here to be what you need me to be. If you really aren't comfortable telling me, I'm not going to force you to. I will be what you need; however, I feel like you want to let it out."

As my eyes filled with tears I said, "I want to tell you. It will just be hard. Nobody knows about it, not even my parents or my best friends. Promise you won't tell?"

"Of course." He replied.

"Okay, here goes nothing. Back in ninth grade, we all had to take sex ed, remember?"

"Yes..."

"Okay, well remember Mr. Janken?"

"Mhmmm..."

"Well, I was somehow failing his tests, so he told me that he would like to tutor me during our advisory period."

"No... please don't let this be what I think it is."

"Just listen, I need to tell someone."

Flashback

Anyways, so after the first chapter test, he scheduled me to come to his room during our advisory period for the entire week following. I went home and explained to my parents that I was failing my tests, so my teacher said he would tutor me. We all felt that this was very kind and were excited for the extra steps he was taking to help me. Well, that Monday, I went into his office and it was just me. It felt a little weird, but he had my tests out and a book. I guess maybe I was the only kid not doing well. As I sat down, I looked at the tests and they all had an A+ on them.

 I looked up ready to ask him what this was about when he said, "shhhh Piper. As you can see, you are not failing my class. In fact, I have never seen someone do so well. Tell me now, are you a virgin? You can't possibly be if you're doing this well in my class."

 I was shocked and replied, "yes sir, I am a virgin."

 He replied, "Well, I don't believe you. Stand up." I stood up and his eyes raked my body. That day I was wearing a pencil skirt and a blouse because I had a speech to give later that day. I began to feel uncomfortable so I folded my arms in front of me. I heard him groan and I looked down, realizing I had just pushed my boobs together, making my cleavage visible. 

I didn't know what to do so I dropped my arms and asked, "so why are you failing me?"

 He replied, "because you are very special Piper. You are a star student and I want you to be more than just book smart. I want you to know and experience things you haven't experienced before. I want to see you replicate the things we have learned."

 I replied, "Sir, with all due respect, I don't think that's appropriate and I don't feel comfortable with that."

 He replied, "Well that's too bad... you want to pass, don't you?"

"Well of course."

"Then you'll do what I tell you and you won't tell anyone. If you do, I will hurt all of the people you love."

After that, I had no words. I just nodded my head and looked down. When I looked down, I could see a bulge in his pants. He began to walk towards me and I jumped when I heard his voice. 

TO BE CONTINUED. NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS, SO PLEASE SKIP OVER IF IT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE!!