Innocence Lost

Nightmares

**Warning, FORCED SEX** **PLEASE READ AT OWN DISCRETION**

Shonda flatlined as James held her hand, tears rolling down his face. I stood in the corner unsure of what to do. As the doctors came in, I walked up behind him and rubbed his shoulders. I sighed and seemed to relax a little bit as the doctors took Shonda off of the machines. Once I got James into the car, I drove him back to my house. I texted my mom before I came so that everyone would leave us alone and not make it weird. I led him to my bedroom and let him lay down. His eyes were bloodshot and she was clearly tired. I covered him up with a light blanket and got into bed with him. I patted my chest to tell him to lay on me and he rolled over and put his head on my chest. He wrapped his right arm around my body and his left one underneath. He held on to me tightly as I stroked his hair. Not long after, I felt and heard his consistent deep breathing, letting me know he had fallen asleep. I stopped stroking his hair and wrapped my arms around his body, allowing myself to fall asleep as well. 

I woke up to James' hand snaking into my pants. He picked up his head and started to make out with me. I was confused because of this change in emotion and didn't know what to do. I pulled away from him and stopped his hand, asking him what he was doing. He told me not to worry and that I should just make him happy. I was so nervous because my door was open and my parents could walk past at anytime. His hand was now in my pants on my part and he was sucking on my neck. I was struggling to resist, knowing that I shouldn't let him do this. I tried to roll away but he just pulled me back. I felt uncomfortable knowing that he was just doing this out of grief. I pulled away hard this time and he looked at me, shocked. 

"What the hell?" he asked.

I got off of the bed, "I can't do this. Not with you like this, in this state of mind."

"I'm fine. Now get back here." he demanded.

I looked at him hesitantly, "No, I don't want to take advantage of you, plus my parents won't let me close the door."

He rolled his eyes and got up, "then lets just take it back to my place. Tell your parents you are taking me home because I shouldn't drive, but it's getting late. They trust you, I'm sure they'll understand."

I squirmed as he walked over to me, "James, I don't know if that's such a good idea."

"Fine, I'm going home then." he grabbed his keys.

"Wait, okay, just let me talk to my parents!" I pleaded.

He smiled and kissed me on the forehead as I went and got the okay from my parents. As we got in the car, I got in the drivers seat and James leaned over and put his hand on my thigh. I smiled as I backed away. Pretty soon though, his hand was trying to get into my pants and I swatted him away. He seemed frustrated as I pulled up to his house. He asked me to go inside with him and I said okay. Once we got inside, he led me to my bedroom and closed his door. He took his shirt of and looked at me with his beautiful eyes, "Now come here Piper, I need you." he said seductively.

I backed away, feeling like I didn't know who this guy was and he reached out and grabbed me. Before I could scream, he covered my mouth and said, "Scream all you want, nobody will hear you." He let go and I started crying. I didn't know what was happening. All of a sudden he threw me on the bed like a rag doll. 

"Don't cry kitten, Daddy will make you feel good all day long," he said.

I stopped crying, knowing that I looked weak. I tried to get up, but he pinned me down, using wrestling moves.

"I don't want to hurt you sweetheart, but if you don't just enjoy this, I might have to." he said to me.

I complied and let him do what he wanted with my body. He took off all of my clothing, not caring if he ripped them or not. By this time I couldn't even look him in the eyes.