Poem Book

*Warning: Suicidal Content*

You make me want to die
You know it.
And yet you just sit back and watch
As I go through life with
The physical pain
You gave me.

I have somewhere to be tonight
Let's hope I don't break down

You understand
That I've harmed myself before
You understand that I want to die
You know I have no one
To live for
You hear what I say
You can see my pain
You choose to let me die

I'm so far gone
I don't think I'll make it back
Not without help
That I refuse to accept anyway.

You're the only one who knows
You're the one who used to help
You're the one who caused this
And you're the one who needs to fix it.
Come fix you're god damn mess.

No wait.
You give up.
You gave up.
Now I understand.
You gave up
And you don't want to help
Because you're weak
Too weak
To face a problem you created
Because you know you can fix it
And you want to watch it destroy itself.

I hope you live a long happy life.
I hope you understand the happiness you gave me
I hope you get married
I hope you have kids
I hope you lose them.
I hope you watch them all die
I hope you understand what it's like to lose your family.
To lose the ones you love.
To be so depressed you can't go back.

Only then will understand what it is like
To be me.