I honestly feel as if I'm about to cry.
I dont know why.
Everything hurts.
My head
My body
My heart
I guess its true.
When a person is ignored, something's triggered in the mind to make it feel as if they were physically hurt.
Is this why I'm always hurting?
One person I want to talk to, they're ignoring me.
Other person I want to talk to, inbox is down.
Other people I want to talk to, either ignoring me or I can't contact them.
I don't know why.
Not fun to talk to? Yeah, I figured that.
Better people to talk to? Every one's much better to talk to.
I don't know why but it's always something.
Sorry if you're reading this and you all of a sudden feel guilty.
I'm not trying to make you feel bad for something you didn't even know.
Heh, I guess this book isn't much about me but more about how sad I am.
But that's the thing.
I'm always sad.
I may laugh, I may smile, I may dance and joke around all day.
But something you didn't know.
Is that when you look away, I'm frowning.
I bite my lip to contain tears.
Every time I step into my room, I'm dealing with things I never want to deal with.
Behind my screen, I may seem happy but I'm still sad.
I can be crying and half dead and you wouldn't know.
I can be joking and saying cheesy things.
Then tell you I'm going on vacation and don't return.
I'm just tired of it all.
And I'm going to sleep now. Don't worry, I'm not dead yet.
