It really got to that point in my life where I just dont even want to be awake anymore.
Like, memes dont bring me satisfaction anymore. Music is barely keeping me going. All I do is sleep or just listen to music. I dont even do schoolwork anymore. I've given up on everything. If it wasnt for one person (I lost the other two), I'd just get rid of my phone in general.
Even then, that one person isnt on all that much so its hard. Music is my legit last resort. Three artists on repeat every day. Paul Anka, AJR, Cuco. Only three artists who even bring me away from sleep.
I dont know anymore. They wanted to take me back to the hospital and I'm starting to think I should have just gone.
I dont have anyone anymore. Yeah, I can definitely reach out to people but I dont really see anyone reaching out to me either so why bother people who dont really want to talk in the first place?
I'm just so tired of everything. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. I cant wait till school is over and I move. I just want to sleep my summer away. Hopefully i graduate next year and can leave America in general. I'd rather be in any other country right about now.
(Young Paul Anka is a dreamboat)
