Ok, I know this is a little late but if you haven't seen In a heartbeat. Please proceed to watch it now......
Did you watch it yet?...
Oh well SPOILERS AHEAD!!!
First off, it was so freakin adorable!!! I was basically just awing half of the time I was watching it! But that's besides the point. I managed to convince my mom to watch it... I know, strange. At first she said, "Oh, it's about two gay kids." Sort of like in a dismissive tone but she did like it after watching it. I can't remember if I ever wrote this down but my mom tends to place all these expectations on me. And don't get me wrong most parents do that to their kids. However, my dad accepted my sexuality and my mom thinks I will out grow it.
I mean who knows I can grow up to be a badass lesbian but it's not something I can out grow. And when I came out to her, I stayed quiet when she would talk about how in the future I will have a great husband. Now, I drop the subtle hints that oh it can be anyone that I can be with when I'm older.
I dated a guy. He was clingy and wanted me all to himself. He pinned me against my friends and I didn't have fun. I kissed a girl. The sweetest person I know (least by my track record of people I know). And this little film was just like a breathe of fresh air. It's a romance, no matter the sex of the other person as long your happy.
And to be honest it has been a long time since I ever did anything to make me happy. I make everyone else happy and I don't care about myself and if something goes wrong it's my fault. I wanna be happy for me and not care what other people think and for once I might actually do that.
This turned into a rant, sorry. But I needed to get it off of my chest. Thanks for reading!
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Being a tomboyish pansexual
NezařaditelnéThis is my little diary sort of thing on being a pansexual. Read if you want to. I will hold nothing back. WARNING this will contain random rambling and intimate stuff....
